so yeah.
I knew this guy in high school named Aaron. He was new to school and was only there for senior year. Everyone called him cowboy because he moved to san clemente from madesto. He was always a sweety and i had a bit of a soft spot for him. who wouldn't, an amazing guy with looks to match. well, after graduation i hadn't really seen him until he got a job at the local arts and crafts store in town, we talked a bit here and there, in passing mainly until one day he came into my work and gave me a hug. it was so nice to see him and acctually have time to talk to him. he told me that him and his girlfriedn broke up and me being the lameo that i am, said "we should hang out sometime" and he said ok. so a few weeks goes by and i didn't think much about it, until, i saw him at the gas station. he gave me his number and said "call me and we'll do something". i said alright and bought my cigarettes and left. the next day, my sister and i were getting our nails done and we talked about going to see spidar man 2. I called him to see if he wanted to come with and he said "yeah, that'll be fun" my sister, at the last min., said "i dont' really wanna go, why dont' you and Aaron just go." i said alright and called him to let him know, and then he came to pick my bum ass up. we went up the the spectrum in irvine and got what i swear were the last two tickets left for the movie, which he paid for. In a girls mind that is the first sign that the guy thinks its a date. I thought we were just hanging out. so yeah, we went and laid on the luv saks which was nice. we talked and giggled a bit. we went into the movie and started making fun of the previews, you know normal movie going things. half way through the movie, we started holding hands. so yeah, it was a date. the next day my best friend Tiffany and i were wanting to go to the pool, so i called him to see if he wanted to come with us because i remember his back hurting the night before, he said yes, and we went and picked him up. all night long we flirted and goofed off in the pool. we all went back to Matty's house and had a beer or two then tiff aaron and i left. we went to drop aaron off and i walked him to the door. he kissed me and said "i'll call you tomorrow." The next day was my sisters birthday and we were going down to oceanside to a club to celebrate (july 4th). he said he tried calling me to see what i was up to but my phone had been acting like an a-hole all night. anyway the next day we hung out on my front portch and made out all night. it was nice. and in the back of my mind i was freaking out thinking "omg i'm kissing cowboy" it was fun. the next day, we hung out at his apartment and made out and fooled around a bit in his room. both of us wanted more to happen, but i am trying the whole not sleeping with someone unless i'm in a relationship with them and so is he. the next night he wouldn't kiss me, and i didn't understand really. so i left it at that and we hung out. i don't have to make out with someone i like everytime i hang out with them, there is more to starting a relationship than kissing and fooling around. it would have been nice, but i don't really want to have things go the way they have for me in the past. so the next day we got our lunches at the same time (he works like 5 buildings down from me) and we ate together. he told me he's not ready for a relationship and i completly understand, and i'm NOT pushing him. so now, for the past few weeks we've been just friends. and its not bad. i really enjoy his company. i mean yeah, its hard to not try and kiss him everytime i go to get out of his car or whatever, but i can replace the kisses with a hug, and i have. he's just an amazing person, and if nothing more comes of us than friendship, i will still be completly happy. I'm happy that Aaron is in my life. he's a good person.
Amanda
Amanda