well here i am
hey guys, i keep bitching at you all to update your journals...(which you still haven't done!) but i haven't exactally done much either...so here we go,
i finally had my ultrasound today!!! yay!! well doc says its 100% boy.. lol... no doubt about it.. but we will see... he said the he is very healthy...about 5 1/2 pounds and that he is really long legged (geez i knew that already *rolls eyes* ) but he also has a head full of hair about (...................) long , thats a lot of hair for a baby don't you think? i do.. but then again i was completly bald (meaning no eyebrows either) untill i was like 1 yr. old or something (my mom taped bows to my head) when he first turned the machine on, he was face up.. i saw his little face and even his little eyelashes it was strange because the doctor got some really good shots but of course he gave me the shitty ones to take with me... the doctor said my due date was more than likely the 31st :D halloween baby!! i thought that ever since i got prego! but yea we will see what happens so yea i am happy that i finally know what this little bugger is, but i am also scared, i know that i WILL be fine eventually, but i mean... its just going to be hard... and i know this... i can't really say i am ready for it because i'm not.. but i am as ready as i can get without it being here already...i just don't want everyone in my house trying to raise my kid.. i don't want my child raised like... uhh...lets say... some of the other children i know........
so ok.. well.. this is all i can do for now is wait... and syke myself out that everythings going to be ok and that there will be no problems and i will be fine....
ugh
~Stefani~
i finally had my ultrasound today!!! yay!! well doc says its 100% boy.. lol... no doubt about it.. but we will see... he said the he is very healthy...about 5 1/2 pounds and that he is really long legged (geez i knew that already *rolls eyes* ) but he also has a head full of hair about (...................) long , thats a lot of hair for a baby don't you think? i do.. but then again i was completly bald (meaning no eyebrows either) untill i was like 1 yr. old or something (my mom taped bows to my head) when he first turned the machine on, he was face up.. i saw his little face and even his little eyelashes it was strange because the doctor got some really good shots but of course he gave me the shitty ones to take with me... the doctor said my due date was more than likely the 31st :D halloween baby!! i thought that ever since i got prego! but yea we will see what happens so yea i am happy that i finally know what this little bugger is, but i am also scared, i know that i WILL be fine eventually, but i mean... its just going to be hard... and i know this... i can't really say i am ready for it because i'm not.. but i am as ready as i can get without it being here already...i just don't want everyone in my house trying to raise my kid.. i don't want my child raised like... uhh...lets say... some of the other children i know........
so ok.. well.. this is all i can do for now is wait... and syke myself out that everythings going to be ok and that there will be no problems and i will be fine....
ugh
~Stefani~