still stuck in thought

[serendipit0us]

as i think of the quarrel between god and satan....as far as i remember, satan was once an angel, whom was thrown down to hell for having envy towards god. ever since, he's trying to get revenge, by turning the human race into sinners. right? so..bottom line, it's your basic "good vs evil". why won't god and satan just get it on and fight? why does the human race have to brought into this. if god created us, and is powerful, why won't he delete the devil? the devil is man made, and so is god in my opinion. i do worry at times...what if god is real? what if satan is real? if there stories are true, my destiny is hell....FUCK THAT. i don't believe in god, but i still have my fucking morals. i'm not killing, lying, stealing, cheating...well, not to the point where it would send me to hell. i live the same life as a catholic or christian, just without any religious beliefs. make sense? i didn't ask to be born, i didn't back on a waiting list to come out of my mother and into this world. the condom broke, the sperm met the egg, and thus, i was created. i don't believe god put me there in my mother. the sperm and egg created me there. so since i didn't ask for this, why must i live this life? why is suicide a sin? NO I'M NOT SUICIDAl i'm just thinking. i just don't like the idea that i'm destined to be judged at the gates of heaven, knowing now, if true, i'm going to hell.. why can't god and satan keep me out of their problems? why the bunny am i the middle man? i didn't praise god, i didn't praise the devil. when i die, just let me sleep.

(note:)just incase, to say this ahead of time, though i doubt it will happen, i'm not trying to start any debates on whether or not god is real, nor am i askin to be preached about excepting jesus, i'm simply enjoying ranting my thoughts, and having my friends comment/criticize on what i think (:3