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I need to work out how to start drawing again.
It's not for lack of inspiration. I have an impulse, a gesture in my head that I'd love to translate to D/C. In fact, I'm worried that it will evaporate while I neglect to pin it down.
But I can't do that part where it comes to putting pencil to paper. I can't even get my head in the right place to start scoping reference pictures. I'm not sure where all that went. Somewhere in my brain I need to start from scratch, and I don't know where scratch is this time.
Part of my problem is that every time I look at any other fan art I'm overwhelmed by how much I can't do that. Which is irrelevant. I used to be drawing for me. I don't know where that went. I don't know why it's about living up to some externally measured standard that I'm the only one setting. I don't know why I'm not even *trying* to meet it.
But if I don't draw *this* picture, it won't get drawn. Surely that should be enough.
(I mean, I missed the Gabe Big Bang--that was such a good time last year...idiot)
It's not for lack of inspiration. I have an impulse, a gesture in my head that I'd love to translate to D/C. In fact, I'm worried that it will evaporate while I neglect to pin it down.
But I can't do that part where it comes to putting pencil to paper. I can't even get my head in the right place to start scoping reference pictures. I'm not sure where all that went. Somewhere in my brain I need to start from scratch, and I don't know where scratch is this time.
Part of my problem is that every time I look at any other fan art I'm overwhelmed by how much I can't do that. Which is irrelevant. I used to be drawing for me. I don't know where that went. I don't know why it's about living up to some externally measured standard that I'm the only one setting. I don't know why I'm not even *trying* to meet it.
But if I don't draw *this* picture, it won't get drawn. Surely that should be enough.
(I mean, I missed the Gabe Big Bang--that was such a good time last year...idiot)