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Heeeeeey everyone. Just got back from the field trip today to the Cherry Blossom Festival, and you know what?
It.
Sucked.
This is... the most depressed, angsty, emo-ish I believe I have ever felt in my entire life... And the reason is simple. Why else do people bitch and emo in front of everyone else?
Relationship problems.
Or rather, psycological problems. I dunno which it is, and I'm hoping it's the second and I'm just being a paranoid idiot.
I've noticed a trend. Every time I get near to Mary, she turns and walks away. Or if she doesn't automatically, she'll wait a minute and leave when I'm not looking or talking to someone else. Why is that? She never seems to talk to me in the hallways at school; at times, I feel that I'm talking to myself. She just... doesn't act towards me like she used to.
Tonight, I cried for the first time in six years. When Mary left today to catch her ride home, she didn't say anything, she didn't wave, she didn't do ANYTHING. In fact, she made a beeline towards the other side of the street, and according to my "ever-so-helpful" dad, she actually looked kind of... mad. Did I do anything to her? I can't but think that I did, and that everything that's been happening over the past couple of months has been my fault.
She treats other guys differently. If Wayne pokes her even once, she goes berserk and tries to get him back for it. If I poke her, she just gets kinda grumpy and tells me to stop. Today at Gameworks, when whats-his-face (I only met him today; don't expect me to remember his name) got a good score on an 8-footer in DDR, Mary got excited and was all "Yay! Good job!" If I do a good job on a 9-footer or anything, does she say anythin? No. Nothing at all.
Like I said, I'm probably just being a paranoid retard, but this is how I percieve our relationship has been like for the past couple months. Sure, I still believe we're going strong and that we'll (hopefully) be together for a lot longer, but... nothing seems to be working as well as in the past.
It.
Sucked.
This is... the most depressed, angsty, emo-ish I believe I have ever felt in my entire life... And the reason is simple. Why else do people bitch and emo in front of everyone else?
Relationship problems.
Or rather, psycological problems. I dunno which it is, and I'm hoping it's the second and I'm just being a paranoid idiot.
I've noticed a trend. Every time I get near to Mary, she turns and walks away. Or if she doesn't automatically, she'll wait a minute and leave when I'm not looking or talking to someone else. Why is that? She never seems to talk to me in the hallways at school; at times, I feel that I'm talking to myself. She just... doesn't act towards me like she used to.
Tonight, I cried for the first time in six years. When Mary left today to catch her ride home, she didn't say anything, she didn't wave, she didn't do ANYTHING. In fact, she made a beeline towards the other side of the street, and according to my "ever-so-helpful" dad, she actually looked kind of... mad. Did I do anything to her? I can't but think that I did, and that everything that's been happening over the past couple of months has been my fault.
She treats other guys differently. If Wayne pokes her even once, she goes berserk and tries to get him back for it. If I poke her, she just gets kinda grumpy and tells me to stop. Today at Gameworks, when whats-his-face (I only met him today; don't expect me to remember his name) got a good score on an 8-footer in DDR, Mary got excited and was all "Yay! Good job!" If I do a good job on a 9-footer or anything, does she say anythin? No. Nothing at all.
Like I said, I'm probably just being a paranoid retard, but this is how I percieve our relationship has been like for the past couple months. Sure, I still believe we're going strong and that we'll (hopefully) be together for a lot longer, but... nothing seems to be working as well as in the past.