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if your public conversations are any clue into what your private ones are like, I am in for a world of heartbreak.
in other news, my last 3 finals are bright and early in the morning. I am destined to likely fail my physical science one. Trying to be perfect at everything is getting extremely draining. I am so dissapointed in myself for not doing well in this course. I need this course for transfer. I didnt however know that I needed to know fucking CALCULUS type shit to even understand physics.
never did it say that in the syllabus. bastard.
In other other news, I am about to live in my car. We have all heard my rants about how detestable my roomates are. [well one half] and the two together are just...FILTHY. I'm sorry but who in their right goddamn mind leaves a slice of pizza sitting on a plate in the kitchen [amongst all the other plates of month-old food] while roaches feast and feast and reproduce ALL OVER THE FUCKING COUNTER?...NO ONE I i would care to know. and unfortunately I LIVE with TWO of them.
this is why i dont ever eat. would you want to eat anything from out of that environment? no. I would clean it up myself but the simple fact is ITS NOT MY FUCKING MESS. and it is technically not my house either so who am I to tell them how to live their pointless fucking lives.
I cannot express how living here has caused a dent in my overall health. breathing in all that gross fucking old food and mold....
Its almost embarrassing.
I cant even invite friends over because i dont want tthem thinking i am a disgusting person. I just live with them.
in other news, my last 3 finals are bright and early in the morning. I am destined to likely fail my physical science one. Trying to be perfect at everything is getting extremely draining. I am so dissapointed in myself for not doing well in this course. I need this course for transfer. I didnt however know that I needed to know fucking CALCULUS type shit to even understand physics.
never did it say that in the syllabus. bastard.
In other other news, I am about to live in my car. We have all heard my rants about how detestable my roomates are. [well one half] and the two together are just...FILTHY. I'm sorry but who in their right goddamn mind leaves a slice of pizza sitting on a plate in the kitchen [amongst all the other plates of month-old food] while roaches feast and feast and reproduce ALL OVER THE FUCKING COUNTER?...NO ONE I i would care to know. and unfortunately I LIVE with TWO of them.
this is why i dont ever eat. would you want to eat anything from out of that environment? no. I would clean it up myself but the simple fact is ITS NOT MY FUCKING MESS. and it is technically not my house either so who am I to tell them how to live their pointless fucking lives.
I cannot express how living here has caused a dent in my overall health. breathing in all that gross fucking old food and mold....
Its almost embarrassing.
I cant even invite friends over because i dont want tthem thinking i am a disgusting person. I just live with them.