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Hey all,
I have a headache, I feel totally nervous and am ready to burst out into tears with any freakin' comment made about me, my life, or anything else for that matter. I'm just way too sensitive today. No, I'm not PMSing either. It's just the fact I'm leaving in 5 days. I haven't yet packed, I was going to start today, but as soon as I do that, it seems so final for me. I have burst out into tears already 3 times today. I am anxious and I hate it. I have to say goodbye and I don't want to. I'm ready to leave but I don't want to go. There is so much I want to hold on to, yet so much to let go of. Life is an oxymoron, a contradiction of terms right now for me. I really need to find peace, but I'm afraid of loss. It feels like a death for me, the death of my old life...why can't I feel my rebirth? Every time in the past, I have relished the rebirthing process, this time, I can't feel it yet.
I need a hug...that's all!
Michelle
I have a headache, I feel totally nervous and am ready to burst out into tears with any freakin' comment made about me, my life, or anything else for that matter. I'm just way too sensitive today. No, I'm not PMSing either. It's just the fact I'm leaving in 5 days. I haven't yet packed, I was going to start today, but as soon as I do that, it seems so final for me. I have burst out into tears already 3 times today. I am anxious and I hate it. I have to say goodbye and I don't want to. I'm ready to leave but I don't want to go. There is so much I want to hold on to, yet so much to let go of. Life is an oxymoron, a contradiction of terms right now for me. I really need to find peace, but I'm afraid of loss. It feels like a death for me, the death of my old life...why can't I feel my rebirth? Every time in the past, I have relished the rebirthing process, this time, I can't feel it yet.
I need a hug...that's all!
Michelle