To be, or not to be...
I thought I posted this 3 weeks ago, but apparently it was saved as a draft.... oof...
September 11, 2009:
Ha. Either I'm clairvoyant, or he's predictable.
I picked him up from work last night at 11:30pm, and we went and hung out with some friends for the remainder of the night. We almost passed out watching a movie at our friend's place but then I realized it's 4am and time to head home. We get to his driveway (which is a block from my house, which is also why I use the Dawson's Creek comparison) and smoke and talk til 5am.
As he got out of my car he asked me to carry his mail in for him, which he was about to forget in the car until I reminded him. He was perfectly capable of taking it in himself. He's not lazy, just looking for an excuse to ask me to come inside at 5am.
Obviously, he wanted me to stay...Obviously, 48 hours later was enough to realize maybe he doesn't want to "quit" after all.
I wanted to stay, oh so badly, but I told him that he should probably just go inside and go to bed, and to call me tomorrow. Which he did. And we had another good day, just hanging out.
Obviously, I'm a fool.
No wonder he gives me mixed signals.... I give him just as many confusing ones.
I don't think either one of us knows how to act. Every day is different. For him, for me, for us.
As happy as I am with the situation we've built, I have these days where I feel like I avoid it....... "to be, or not to be?"
September 11, 2009:
Ha. Either I'm clairvoyant, or he's predictable.
I picked him up from work last night at 11:30pm, and we went and hung out with some friends for the remainder of the night. We almost passed out watching a movie at our friend's place but then I realized it's 4am and time to head home. We get to his driveway (which is a block from my house, which is also why I use the Dawson's Creek comparison) and smoke and talk til 5am.
As he got out of my car he asked me to carry his mail in for him, which he was about to forget in the car until I reminded him. He was perfectly capable of taking it in himself. He's not lazy, just looking for an excuse to ask me to come inside at 5am.
Obviously, he wanted me to stay...Obviously, 48 hours later was enough to realize maybe he doesn't want to "quit" after all.
I wanted to stay, oh so badly, but I told him that he should probably just go inside and go to bed, and to call me tomorrow. Which he did. And we had another good day, just hanging out.
Obviously, I'm a fool.
No wonder he gives me mixed signals.... I give him just as many confusing ones.
I don't think either one of us knows how to act. Every day is different. For him, for me, for us.
As happy as I am with the situation we've built, I have these days where I feel like I avoid it....... "to be, or not to be?"