Shame on Me
NOT GOOD ENOUGH?!?!?!?! where did she get all of those LIES?!?!?!?! NICKI is better than ME because "she treats him like a person and not her perosonal slave" EXCUSE ME?!?!?!?!?! what have i EVER done that would make her say and BELIEVE any of that?!?!?!?! she's making it out to where i'm this cold hearted bitch and he's just a innocent angel who's heart was torn to shreds by some monster! HE'S AT FAULT TOO!!!!! calling me the biggest mistake of his life, saying he never loved me and the list goes on and on and ON!!!!!!
excuse the hell out of me for taking care of your brother.
pardon me for rushing him to the hospital.
oh shit i'm sorry i made sure he took his medicine like he was supposed to.
i guess i should have poured the medicated soap down the drain and let him just rinse of the freaking sore with water and hoped for the best. sorry i changed his bandage regularly. and i'm really sorry for BLOWING OFF MY OWN FAMILY TO TAKE CARE OF YOUR BROTHER THAT WEEKEND!!!!
damn i shouldn't have told him that his drinking was getting WAY out of hand. and i shouldn't have pitched a fit when i would get a drunken phone call at 5am and he had class at 8am. i guess i should just let things like that go and sit back and watch him royally fuck up his life. that'll prove i care.
oh hell i freakin' carried him out to the car drug him up the stairs and put him to bed when he was so shit faced he could see straight and then fucking took care of him when he got sick!
my bad for doing everything except wipe his ass for him.
well fuck i didn't realize that i was supposed to leave the damn room EVERYTIME you enter it so you can "spend time" with your brother. i didn't know spending time with some one meant you ABSOLUTLY had to be alone with him. like otjer people are unimportant. or maybe the thrid person DIDN'T KNOW YOU WANTED "PRIVATE" TIME WITH HIM BECAUSE YOU DIDN'T FUCKING SAY ANYTHING. i'm not a mind reader, but i guess the nasty looks should have been a clue.
i didn't realize that i was lower than sucm in your eyes. and for reasons that i don't even know.
i didn't know that i couldn't be in the same fucking room as your brother when you were on the phone with him. [ "hey bubba what are you doing" "sitting with gina" "oh well i'll just call you later bye" ]
i'm sorry i ever said "well if it pisses her off so bad for me to be here while ya'll are on the phone just tell her to call when i'm not here"
i didn't realize saying "dinner is ready" or "we're going to be late" was rushing him off the phone. HE CAN WALK AND TALK AND HE CAN ALWAYS REHEAT HIS FOOD.
shit i wish someone had told me that when your brother was helping me do things, that in reality he was performing slave labor. guess i need to brush up on my history.
i feel terrible that i felt welcome in your mother's home, but not in your brother's step-mother's house.excuse te hell out of me for wanting to be abe to relax and not have to worry about someone giving me th thrid degree about something. god forbid i be comfortable somewhere.
oh damn i'm "jealous" of a sister who loves her brother. how about we use the words "admire" or "appreciate".
some one fucking shoot me for wanting every little detail of a family get togther of his that i had to miss. "how was your mom? was she happy to see you? did you and your sister have a good time? what all did ya'll do? did you tell everyone hey for me? were there babies there? did you get to play with them? you're going to make a wonderful father some day." yeah. i faulted him for loving his family.
i did none of the things you are accusing me of and i don't appreciate the fact that you JUDGED me with out KNOWING me first. i don't know where the deep-seeded hate for me came from, but you need to think about what you are saying before you say it. your brother is NO angel and neither am i. how dare you try and make me seem so cold hearted. and how DARE you for EVER questioning my love for your brother. obviously you never payed attention because i think i've gone above and beyond when it comes to proving something to some one......