The Experiment was a Failure
Apparently. the Ambient I took was not enough to get me to A) fall asleep, and B) keep me asleep. Sigh. So another restless night for me.
Well, I'm back on something for my depression, which I really didn't want to do, but had to do because frankly, I was drowning. Sigh. It always sucks.
I've been very stressed lately, and it's been getting to me. The whole job this has become and area of real contention. Some people want me to get a job that will "make me happy," and others want me to get a job that pays, and has benefits. Of course, they can't be the same job because all the jobs I'm qualified to do, don't interest me, but I'm willing to suck it up. Of course, whatever I do... won't matter if I duck. There's going to be shrapnel everywhere.
Sigh. So, I am contemplating getting a job for a year or so that's more laid back so I can figure out what I really want to do. Something, in retrospect, I should have done a few years ago, but no one gave me the time. Besides, let's not forget I was bloody 18 years old, and what I would be doing when I was 22 really didn't interest me.
So, what do you think I should do? Find an interim job that makes me happy, or get a real job that pays well, but will probably make me miserable?
Is it selfish to say that I want an interim job? The other thing is... we're (Kyle, and me) are a young couple. We need money to get started.
In other news I completely missed this huge event I had to attend for a project. I thought it was Friday, wrote it down as Friday, but turns out... it was Tuesday. So I have to do some sort of make-up project. Which, is fine by me, since I really don't want my grade, but more importantly my team mate's grades to be affected by this.
Also, I am FINALLY done with Network Security, so now I really have no reason not to do any of my work because I technically only have 3 courses. Yay me!
Well, I have Vanguard up and running, waiting for me. So I'm off. Curse you morning!
Well, I'm back on something for my depression, which I really didn't want to do, but had to do because frankly, I was drowning. Sigh. It always sucks.
I've been very stressed lately, and it's been getting to me. The whole job this has become and area of real contention. Some people want me to get a job that will "make me happy," and others want me to get a job that pays, and has benefits. Of course, they can't be the same job because all the jobs I'm qualified to do, don't interest me, but I'm willing to suck it up. Of course, whatever I do... won't matter if I duck. There's going to be shrapnel everywhere.
Sigh. So, I am contemplating getting a job for a year or so that's more laid back so I can figure out what I really want to do. Something, in retrospect, I should have done a few years ago, but no one gave me the time. Besides, let's not forget I was bloody 18 years old, and what I would be doing when I was 22 really didn't interest me.
So, what do you think I should do? Find an interim job that makes me happy, or get a real job that pays well, but will probably make me miserable?
Is it selfish to say that I want an interim job? The other thing is... we're (Kyle, and me) are a young couple. We need money to get started.
In other news I completely missed this huge event I had to attend for a project. I thought it was Friday, wrote it down as Friday, but turns out... it was Tuesday. So I have to do some sort of make-up project. Which, is fine by me, since I really don't want my grade, but more importantly my team mate's grades to be affected by this.
Also, I am FINALLY done with Network Security, so now I really have no reason not to do any of my work because I technically only have 3 courses. Yay me!
Well, I have Vanguard up and running, waiting for me. So I'm off. Curse you morning!