I know you need it. I didn't mean they should be helping pay now, I meant they should have done that from the start. Like I have been sleeping?
I never said you didn't deserve a break. I'm just panicking because it's all happening so fast, and I don't know how to deal with it. If you told me this months ago, or weren't going to leave for a few more months I could deal with this better.
You're not selfish for wanting this, you NEED this. I know that, but I can't stop being the way I am because it's just the way I am. I'll be worrying about you while your on the road, and I'll be worrying about you until you do figure college out. I'm selfish because I don't want you to take a break, I want you to figure everything out NOW. I'm selfish because I want you to work everything out and come back to me as soon as possible. I'm selfish BECAUSE I want you to come back to me, when I was part of what made you like this in the first place.
There's just too much stuff going on at once for me to deal with it all. You're leaving me, I'm worried about paying for college because my dad just lost his fucking job, my uncle doesn't do shit. You were always the one I turned to when I was having a hard time, and now I don't know who to go to because no one else really gets it and I'm not strong enough to let myself break down in front of any one else.
I never said you didn't deserve a break. I'm just panicking because it's all happening so fast, and I don't know how to deal with it. If you told me this months ago, or weren't going to leave for a few more months I could deal with this better.
You're not selfish for wanting this, you NEED this. I know that, but I can't stop being the way I am because it's just the way I am. I'll be worrying about you while your on the road, and I'll be worrying about you until you do figure college out. I'm selfish because I don't want you to take a break, I want you to figure everything out NOW. I'm selfish because I want you to work everything out and come back to me as soon as possible. I'm selfish BECAUSE I want you to come back to me, when I was part of what made you like this in the first place.
There's just too much stuff going on at once for me to deal with it all. You're leaving me, I'm worried about paying for college because my dad just lost his fucking job, my uncle doesn't do shit. You were always the one I turned to when I was having a hard time, and now I don't know who to go to because no one else really gets it and I'm not strong enough to let myself break down in front of any one else.
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