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im desperate for the feeling of being wanted.
i look in the mirror daily and hate what i see.
im thinking of just not looking anymore.
i dont know how that would fix my problem.
i feel dirty all the time.
its not a grungy dirty.
its the ive been stepped on.
ive been forgotten about.
im an old toy.. kind of dirty.
i feel like enough has been done to try to salvage what relationships i have.
and ill repeat myself yet again..
im too tired to keep trying.
i get no where.
im sure like every other time i have a problem, this too shall pass.
fuck it passing!
i want it to end!
but what can i do?
i look in the mirror daily and hate what i see.
im thinking of just not looking anymore.
i dont know how that would fix my problem.
i feel dirty all the time.
its not a grungy dirty.
its the ive been stepped on.
ive been forgotten about.
im an old toy.. kind of dirty.
i feel like enough has been done to try to salvage what relationships i have.
and ill repeat myself yet again..
im too tired to keep trying.
i get no where.
im sure like every other time i have a problem, this too shall pass.
fuck it passing!
i want it to end!
but what can i do?