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everything has change for the worse and i can't seem to shake this evil curse. seems to follow me and resides with pain and failure deep inside my soul. it's cold. what can i do? and all those inner demons start to burn. and will i start to dred or begin to fall behind? breathe in, breathe out, survive. i felt condemned to this and i'm not going back again. start to begin. breathe in, breathe out, survive. keep my head up on the water. get my feet back on the sand. cuz tomorrow might be all i get. all the spots we waste. the second time is always said to be much better than the first. so why does it hurt? could it be our smiles are nothing but wrinkles on our face? it's such a waste. when feelings that were meant to be told, stand out in the cold, and truth stands aside. breathe in, breathe out, survive. i felt condemned to this and i'm not going back again. start to begin. breathe in, breathe out, survive. keep my head up on the water. get my feet back on the sand. cause tomorrow might be all i get. flag down, betrayed for what i gave. i should have left it alone. just leave and wipe the burn from my eyes. flag down, betrayed for what i gave. i should have left it alone. just leave and wipe the burn from my eyes. breathe in, breathe out, survive. i felt condemned to this and i'm not going back again. start to begin. breathe in, breathe out, survive. cuz tomorrow might be all i get.
well ive had maybe the worst week of my life.
ive had a heartbreak for like a week now. and its not even from a boy. boys are actually being really cool lately. theyve been there for me and they've been all cute and nice. so this heartbreak is really close to me.
cancer has invaded the body of a person very dear to me and i want to die. surgery is thursday and im scared. they dont know how bad it is. but the family figures shes a strong person... she can overcome this right? i mean she's gonna fight it. she'll be ok. im gonna go see her thursday at the hospital. after the surgery. they'll know more then.
well i feel unwanted. unneeded. i dont know why you were nice to me and wanted me around if you were just getting tired of me. you could have just told me. you didnt have to show me. that hurt me more than anything youve ever done. talking about it made me trust you less. youre still my favorite person but damn we're not the same. we're still best friends. i just wish you could be more honest with me. even if you were drunk... thats what you wanted to do. just know that im never talking to chris. he's a dick.
well i had the worst weekend. worst week actually. but i guess ill be ok. i mean after this week i hope everything will be ok. so this is just a hard time now. ill be fine soon. everything will be ok soon. it's just gonna take some time.
love you
well ive had maybe the worst week of my life.
ive had a heartbreak for like a week now. and its not even from a boy. boys are actually being really cool lately. theyve been there for me and they've been all cute and nice. so this heartbreak is really close to me.
cancer has invaded the body of a person very dear to me and i want to die. surgery is thursday and im scared. they dont know how bad it is. but the family figures shes a strong person... she can overcome this right? i mean she's gonna fight it. she'll be ok. im gonna go see her thursday at the hospital. after the surgery. they'll know more then.
well i feel unwanted. unneeded. i dont know why you were nice to me and wanted me around if you were just getting tired of me. you could have just told me. you didnt have to show me. that hurt me more than anything youve ever done. talking about it made me trust you less. youre still my favorite person but damn we're not the same. we're still best friends. i just wish you could be more honest with me. even if you were drunk... thats what you wanted to do. just know that im never talking to chris. he's a dick.
well i had the worst weekend. worst week actually. but i guess ill be ok. i mean after this week i hope everything will be ok. so this is just a hard time now. ill be fine soon. everything will be ok soon. it's just gonna take some time.
love you