Step Fifty-Four
...I'm getting much too thin. My clothes are starting to hang off of me, and I'm already in tiny sizes.
I'm following the doctor's instructions, and I eat like there's nothing holding me back. And it's junky stuff, food that I usually don't eat because it's not good for athletes. I shouldn't be losing this much, this fast. I'm just skin and bones, and...it's frightening.
And then there's Takashi. We haven't been dating very long, but...I like him a lot. I could fall very fast for him...and it feels safe. Just by being there, by holding me and not demanding answers,
I'm starting to feel like it's safe for me to fall in love.
Is anyone interested in taking some of my old clothes? They're...too big for me, and I'd like to know if there's a good home for them before I either donate them or let them rot in my closet. Keep in mind that the shirts and pants are all smalls. I need to go shopping to find clothes that fit.
Takashi is coming tonight and spending the night with my family, and we're leaving early tomorrow. Should be back around Saturday afternoon or so, just in time for me to help prep to welcome our victims counselors-in-training. =) It's my first year as a mentor, and it's going to be fun. Tough, but fun.