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ding dang it. a few things have happened in my life that have made me tryely think. it sounds a little silly, because one is always thinking, even in sleep. anyway, i keep getting these really nasty stomach aches that make me think im about to throw up but then nothing happens and i just feel gross all day.i suppose it could be stress related but the sources of stress in my life, ive come to terms with. its okay with me if justin and i are never together again, it really is. it just makes me wonder how i could have had such strong feelings if they werent for real. like, its a possibility that we never really loved eachother. some days this notion scares the shit out of me but other days/moments it makes complete sense.i realize that itll take a while for me to get my shit together but im so fucking impatient!