One Night (Part 4)
Title : One Night
Author : sennz
Pairing : Yamada Ryosuke X Nakajima Yuto
Genre : AU, Romance, Angst
Rating : PG
Summary : Yuto leave Ryosuke without telling him the reason. Until one night they met again and spent the night together. But the next morning he wake up without the taller next to him.
Warning : English is not my native language. Please bear with my grammatical errors and the misspellings. Beside this is my FIRST fanfic, so please forgive me for the suck story. I'm still a newbie.. Thank you :)
Yuto’s POV
“I will stay at Shizuoka Too-san! I’m not a kid anymore who should follow wherever you go. I can live alone, you don’t have to worry about me, I can take care of myself. Beside, I can go to Oba-san deshou” I said rejecting what my Too-san said.
“No Yuto!” my dad replied. “Not when we are worrying a lot about your condition”
“Too-san please.. I don’t want to..”
“We can get better medical treatment there”
“But.. I can still get it in here!”
“No buts. We are moving to Tokyo tomorrow. Please understand how is our feelings too, Yuto”
***
I could see a small figure sitting on the bench under a cherry tree. The wind that blowing hard made his brown hair that had been combed perfectly became all messy, made him frowned in annoyed, and the boy was combing his brown hair again with his fingers. His face looked a little uneasy, and for several times already he looked at his watch circled around his left wrist.
I took a deep breath and threw it away. My legs felt heavy to move towards the figure. It felt so hard.
“You are 10 minutes late Yuto-kun” said the small guy while pouting his lips like a child when I arrived and sat next to him.
“Gomen, Ryosuke..”
“Mou, you always late for our date” the shorter kept complaining about that without erasing the pout on his lips. “So, can we going now? You have promised me to bring me to the Ferris wheel deshou?” he asked, change the annoyed face of him before to a bright and cheerful smile.
How can I able to lose that smile?
“Ano.. ..Ryosuke, actually..”
How can I say that?
“What’s wrong Yuto-kun?” he asked while looked at me still with his beautiful smile.
Even before I said it, I can imagine the smile plastered on his face gone and replaced by the tears .
“Actually….
I’m moving to Tokyo today..”
Somehow for a moment the world seems stopped spinning
And instantaneously what I felt was the cold wind that blows, as it delivering the last words I say.
“Eh..?”
And the smile plastered on his face disappeared.
“Ryosuke.. I’m so-“
“Nande Yuto-kun..?” he asked in disbelief. The cheerful expression he has before now became a sour expression. I could see the tears that pooled in the corner of his eyes start flowing, wettiing his beautiful cheek. “Nande? Suddenly..”
Nande?
Because I’m sick and my parent want me to move with them in Tokyo.
What a selfish reason I have
“I’m sorry Ryosuke.. I’m so sorry..”
Sorry,
That was the only thing I can say to him..
The last time I see his face was his crying face before he ran home and locked himself inside his room.
“Go! Just leave me... I don’t wanna see you” he said with a sob voice.
Without let me hug and kiss him for the last time.
"Gomen. Sayoonara..Ryosuke.."
***
It had been more than a year since I lived in Tokyo with my parent and my younger brother, Raiya. Since moved here I never going to university because my father said that I must pay more attention to my health. But my condition kept worsening eventhough I got the medical treatment routinely.
There were times when I cried because of the unbearable pain on my chest. It was aching so badly.
The times when I thought that my life will not longer.
I will die soon..
That’s what I believe.
“Oni-san.. is it really okay? It’s from yamada-kun”
“Unn.. I don’t want to give him a false hope anymore..” I said looking blankly at my cell phone that was vibrating above the table.
The first few months I would call him almost every night, sent him ‘good morning’ and ‘how are you’ messages. I really miss him. His messages and his voice were the only thing that made my days brighter. I will say that I’m good here, and was busy with thesis whenever I could not reply his messages and call him because of my treatment.
Yes. I told him lies. I just didn’t want him to worry about me.
I even promised him that I will back and asked him to wait for me.
But., that was all before my condition getting worse.
Day by day I’m learning to give up everything. I stopped contacting him completely.
It was hard for me though. So frustrating because I love him so much.
But I knew that was the best choice for us.
He still has hopes and future.
And he could get a better person than me.
***
“Heart transplantation?” I asked unsure to the man in white coat in front of me. The man just nodded.
“That was the last choice to longer your life” the doctor said.
“Is it mean that I can live normally again?” I asked flatly, without expecting a miracle happen to me. Looked uninterest.
“It depends on how your body can manage with the new heart. So I can’t determine it” answer the doctor.
“How is the percentage for the transplantation to success? Is it 100%?”
“it’s 80%. But if your immune body rejected the transplant it will be fatal” the doctor said.
That's mean that there were 20% for me to die..
Which one was my fate?
***
It was afternoon, I can felt the breeze blowing through the opened window in my room. I was leaning my back on the bed board, filling my time by reading a book while listening music.
“Oni-san, there is something I want to tell you..” Said Raiya suddenly as he entered my room then sat on the edge of my bed. His face was very serious, that’s why I closed my book for a while and turn off the music to pay attention to what my younger brother want to tell.
“Nani?”
“Actually…. I saw Yamada-kun last month…”
What did he say?
“I was not sure if I should tell you this before. But, since the doctor said that you can live longer if the transplantation going well, I’m sure that there is a hope for you to live” the younger boy said.
“I want you meet him Nii-san” he said full of concern. “I don’t want you to regret anything”
What did he say?
For months, I have tried really hard to give up everything and throw away any feelings that can bring hopes
And now.. he asked me to meet the person who can bring those feelings come back to me
***
I was standing in the middle of people passing by. The place was so crowded. Raiya said he had saw him several times here, so I thought he must worked in Tokyo.
I was busy with my own thought, what should I do when I saw him? what should I say? how can I face him after all this time ignoring all the messages and calls from him? he must hate me so much, and thinking that I was cheating on him. I sighed. The questions kept flashing in my mind, and that made me very anxious.
I spread my gaze to the people around me when suddenly my eyes caught what I was looking for.
When this eyes found what had disappeared..
That’s the time when I realized I had found my happiness..
“Eh..”
The figure that I miss so much was standing several meters in front of me. Staring at me in disbelief.
“Ryosuke! Matte!” I shout, when that figure suddenly ran away.
I ran as fast as I can, ignoring the ache feeling on my chest. And once I could grip his wrist I pulled him into my embrace.
“Don’t.. “
“Please don’t run anymore…” I begged.
“Let go of me..” He said coldly.
No.
“Stay away from me..” his voice was tremble.
“I won’t..” I said, kept hugging him more tightly. Then I turned his body to face me. There, the face I really want to see so badly, was now wet with the tears.
“Gomen” I said slowly. Begging.
Please don’t cry..
“Please don’t leave me anymore..” he said while crying so hard.
And at that time, In promised to myself that I’ll fight for my life.
That’s all because of the person in my arms.
***
I stared at the face of someone who fell asleep in my arms. The figure I really miss and love. I moved my hand slowly, revealing some strands of hair that covered his face and kissed his forehead.
I was not able to let him go for the second time. He really can restore all the feelings that I had thrown away. The feelings that bring hope. Hope to stay alive that I've given up. But seeing him once again changed me completely. I want to be with him, and could always see him smile.
I held him so tightly, kissing his head repeatedly and buried my face in his brown hair. Without realizing my tears started pouring so hard. My chest started feeling so much pain.
I was afraid, afraid if I can no longer be with him to keep my promise.
Afraid if I should leave him forever.
Ryosuke gomen… gomen..
I promise, I will never leave you again
Kamisama, please…
Give me a chance to live longer with him..
***
For the last time I stared at the figure that sleeping peacefully on his bed. I kissed his forehead, his cheek, and his lips while hoping that were not the last kiss I could give to him. I put a piece of paper with my handwriting on the top of his clothes before finally went outside.
The pain on my chest was getting unbearable. I clutched on my shirt tightly, trying to restrain the pain. I walked on the way down, with unsteady steps before finally entering a black car parked in front of the apartment building.
“Oni-san.. daijoubu ka?”
I could not say anything. Let the tears kept flowing from my eyes. The feeling was so unbearable.
The pain and fear merged into one.
It hurt so bad.
“Say it Raiya, that I can still live longer… “
“That’s true oni-san. Daijoubu.. I believe that the operation will be success”
***
“Are you ready for your operation, Nii-san?” asked Raiya worried, while looking at me.
“Unn..”I answered. “Demo, can you do me a favor?”
“What’s it?” he asked. I sat on my bed and took an envelope from the table beside me.
“If my operation Failed, I want you to meet him give this letter to Ryosuke”
***
A small figure was standing near a bench under a cherry tree. Staring at the wet bench in front of him. He smiled bitterly, remembering something about that place. It was his usual place where he always wait for his lover.
“it was still here..” the guy murmured slowly before he started walking again and then stopped in front of a certain house nearby. After three days worked in Shizuoka finally he can manage to go to that place, hoping he can meet someone he was looking for.
With pounding heart the guy pressed the doorbell, expecting that someone was the one who will open the door.
But unfortunately it was not.
“Konnichiwa oba-san. Do you still remember me?” asked the guy to the middle age woman in front of me.
“Of course Yamada-kun, how can I forget you..” said the woman, but made the younger smile in shy.
“Actually I’m looking for Yuto-kun. Do you know where is he, oba-san?” the guy asked full of anxious.
“About that.. Raiya called me earlier, he said that he went to your apartment in Tokyo.”
“Raiya-kun?”
“Un.. And he knew that you are in Shizuoka. That’s why he asked me to tell you something..”
“What is it Oba-san?” the younger asked in curious.
“It’s about Yuto”
"Yuto-kun?"
To be continued.........
Owari
What I want to say now is......
Sorry for making Yuto suffer XD Please don't kick meeee