Guilt with a side of depression please.
So, Ok, this sucks, but whatever.
I just want to say thanks to every one of my friends for checking up on me and for caring. I really appreciate it.
So, Lets seeeeeee.....Found out several things this week.
This mistress and my dad used to be engaged. He broke up with her, and moved to san diego. She followed him and stalked him. Tried to contact him after him and my mom had gotten married and her and husband had gotten married. My dad had depression probably all of his life and no one ever knew and no one ever told him about it. This woman contacted him first, not the other way around. Um, let's see, my dad said he was extremely sorry for the way he has treated me and for ignoring me and the rest of my family for almost all of my life. And all of this makes me feel so incredibly bad. I mean, i didn't know that he had such bad problems. I mean, i knew about the depression but I figured that is was just an excuse. I feel really bad. My mom said he has been crying since monday. He thinks I hate him, which I know I said a lot, but I do't know if I really meant it. Because just the sad state he is in now makes me want to cry. I just feel liek maybe if I had been nicer to him maybe he wouldn't be in such a deep hole. I feel really bad. You don't even know. But I am going to start cry if I keep talking about it. I need to finish my paper. Bye.
I just want to say thanks to every one of my friends for checking up on me and for caring. I really appreciate it.
So, Lets seeeeeee.....Found out several things this week.
This mistress and my dad used to be engaged. He broke up with her, and moved to san diego. She followed him and stalked him. Tried to contact him after him and my mom had gotten married and her and husband had gotten married. My dad had depression probably all of his life and no one ever knew and no one ever told him about it. This woman contacted him first, not the other way around. Um, let's see, my dad said he was extremely sorry for the way he has treated me and for ignoring me and the rest of my family for almost all of my life. And all of this makes me feel so incredibly bad. I mean, i didn't know that he had such bad problems. I mean, i knew about the depression but I figured that is was just an excuse. I feel really bad. My mom said he has been crying since monday. He thinks I hate him, which I know I said a lot, but I do't know if I really meant it. Because just the sad state he is in now makes me want to cry. I just feel liek maybe if I had been nicer to him maybe he wouldn't be in such a deep hole. I feel really bad. You don't even know. But I am going to start cry if I keep talking about it. I need to finish my paper. Bye.