So this is where not being able to sleep gets you...
So this is a bit dark for my usual giddy dorky entries...
I can't help but be scared of death. I mean, it's not the actual dying part I am scared of, it's the after part. I know with my religion I am supposed to have complete and total faith hin the fact that you will either go to heaven or to hell. But, what if there is none? What if you don't really have a soul and you are just a pathetic creature that will roam on this earth for a milisecond of this planets existance. What if you were just made to kill the planet? What if you weren't made at all, you are just higher form of a monkey, and that's all. Back to the point, what if there is death and that's all? You are mourned over for a week then everyone forgets your name, quickly you become a memory, then even quicker you are just a flash in someones brains. You are that little daily reminder of their unavoidable fate. I don't know, maybe it's just the fact that i can't sleep and I am trying to think of the most depressing topic that will make me want to force myself to fall asleep. I don't know. I'll try to sleep again.
I can't help but be scared of death. I mean, it's not the actual dying part I am scared of, it's the after part. I know with my religion I am supposed to have complete and total faith hin the fact that you will either go to heaven or to hell. But, what if there is none? What if you don't really have a soul and you are just a pathetic creature that will roam on this earth for a milisecond of this planets existance. What if you were just made to kill the planet? What if you weren't made at all, you are just higher form of a monkey, and that's all. Back to the point, what if there is death and that's all? You are mourned over for a week then everyone forgets your name, quickly you become a memory, then even quicker you are just a flash in someones brains. You are that little daily reminder of their unavoidable fate. I don't know, maybe it's just the fact that i can't sleep and I am trying to think of the most depressing topic that will make me want to force myself to fall asleep. I don't know. I'll try to sleep again.