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well this is an interesting predicament. she ignores me. we all get that. yes can we all just say it together. I AM NOT THE SHIT. she does not want me. i am not good enough for her. i am not a hipster. she does not want to take the time to get to know how awesome i... okay beside the point. no ego, no ego.
my point is... mark asked me out. i'd never been interested, never even considered it. it's what society would tell me would make me happy. and the truth is, i am sort of attracted to him. it's just what life brought me.
BUT. max, silly max. well, ducky is his name i guess. the one i've wanted all semester. tonight, life brought a little something special there too.
HE KISSES LIKE A GIRL HOLY CRAP HE IS PASSIONATE AND A LITTLE SCRUFFY IN THE FACE BUT HE TOUCHES ME AND LETS ME TOUCH HIM AS IF WE WERE BOTH GIRLS.
win. the trouble is, he's a boy. maybe i can let this not be trouble?
either way, i have some heart wrenching soul searching true to myself decisions to make.
i have a feeling when i come home from winter break, i will be exactly where i started. alone, woot!
i'm fine with the easy route. nobody is PERFECT. nobody really has THAT much of my attention.
well okay, i lied. just the girl that ignored me.
heh. heh.
my point is... mark asked me out. i'd never been interested, never even considered it. it's what society would tell me would make me happy. and the truth is, i am sort of attracted to him. it's just what life brought me.
BUT. max, silly max. well, ducky is his name i guess. the one i've wanted all semester. tonight, life brought a little something special there too.
HE KISSES LIKE A GIRL HOLY CRAP HE IS PASSIONATE AND A LITTLE SCRUFFY IN THE FACE BUT HE TOUCHES ME AND LETS ME TOUCH HIM AS IF WE WERE BOTH GIRLS.
win. the trouble is, he's a boy. maybe i can let this not be trouble?
either way, i have some heart wrenching soul searching true to myself decisions to make.
i have a feeling when i come home from winter break, i will be exactly where i started. alone, woot!
i'm fine with the easy route. nobody is PERFECT. nobody really has THAT much of my attention.
well okay, i lied. just the girl that ignored me.
heh. heh.