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The moving is nearly complete, and I figured out one of the reasons this procedure is bothering me so much. Usually when you move it sucks to have to clean everything and get everything packed and shit, but hell, your going some place new!!! I, on the other hand, am going a stones throw away for, chances are, either insane or remarkably stupid reasons.
So, much like being forced to hike up an endless staircase when your already on the right floor, I find my actions both in vain and controlled by a force larger and much less rational then I. The problem is there's no real solution. I live at home, I don't pay for my own shit...
Damn, dependency sucks anus. My knees been bothering me during this moving bullshit, but it's tolerable enough so that I can start working again. Which is what I'm going to do. I haven't been able to sit down and figure it out yet, but I'm going to try and get a months worth of rent before summer begins.
Wait, wait, wait. I don't like talking about my plans for the future. What the fuck am I doing.
School has reached it's post Spring break lull, I know everyone else is feeling it too. You can see it on their faces in class, and you can notice that the top 2 levels of the M deck hardly ever have cars on them anymore. The only problem is that the growing lethargy concerning school is developing in other area's of my life and has made it increasingly difficult to concentrate on anything requiring the slightest bit of effort or thought. I suppose this is why I started watching Naruto again.
Bullshit.
Luckily these sort of phases tend to be a catapult for me, or at least the last few times. So after the dust settles and I start to develop again a clear perception of what I want to accomplish I'll be able to pass this off as just another binge of self-serving melancholy.
So, much like being forced to hike up an endless staircase when your already on the right floor, I find my actions both in vain and controlled by a force larger and much less rational then I. The problem is there's no real solution. I live at home, I don't pay for my own shit...
Damn, dependency sucks anus. My knees been bothering me during this moving bullshit, but it's tolerable enough so that I can start working again. Which is what I'm going to do. I haven't been able to sit down and figure it out yet, but I'm going to try and get a months worth of rent before summer begins.
Wait, wait, wait. I don't like talking about my plans for the future. What the fuck am I doing.
School has reached it's post Spring break lull, I know everyone else is feeling it too. You can see it on their faces in class, and you can notice that the top 2 levels of the M deck hardly ever have cars on them anymore. The only problem is that the growing lethargy concerning school is developing in other area's of my life and has made it increasingly difficult to concentrate on anything requiring the slightest bit of effort or thought. I suppose this is why I started watching Naruto again.
Bullshit.
Luckily these sort of phases tend to be a catapult for me, or at least the last few times. So after the dust settles and I start to develop again a clear perception of what I want to accomplish I'll be able to pass this off as just another binge of self-serving melancholy.