And as the footsteps fade away...
I need to get away. From all of this. Changing who I am all the time in order to function in my environement is taking its toll on me. I have no idea what I want anymore.. I just know I don't have it, whatever it is. Everything seems to bother me, and I don't want it to, cause most of it I really can't do anything about except try and wait it out. And I feel like all I ever do is complain. Its not a fun place to be in. And just the fact that drugs and everything come up everywhere I turn nowadays, and I want to be able to say hey let people do what they will who am I to interfere.. but so many people I know are miserable thanks to all of it.. and are headed in a real bad place.. and its frustrating.. and it makes me feel really alone cause no one else seems to see things like I do.... and I don't like talking about this stuff cause it seems like whenever I do I get accused of being uptight or something.. I wish I didn't care so much.. I just want to disapear and start over... man this hurts... feeling this lonely... I wouldn't wish this on anyone.. thats all.