I'm a halloween partypooper
Did anyone know that Sarah Dessen has a Myspace AND livejournal!? I never thought about author's having those things! It's pretty cool... I added her... on both... so after reading her blog, I figure she's a pretty random person. She's a complete TV Junkie, too. I don't even know how she is able to watch all those shows or how she keeps herself from confusing one plotline with another. I mean, are there even enough hours in the day? Well, then again, she's not a teenager with band practices 5/7 days a week, honors classes, and a social life. Also, I'm not interested in TV as I used to be. It makes me feel lazy sitting in front of the TV for so long. Like my brain is dying. After a while, I can start to feel melting brain ooze from my ears. It's just so numbing and I get this huge headache. Anyway, it's just not my forte(ah, can't escape band, ever).
Today, I didn't do much. I guess I should have been working on my essay due on Wednesday, but I rarely ever get a day to relax. And well, I wasted two hours of that relaxation time peeling off 5 layers of white eletric tape from my fish(mock rifle that no one in the guard uses anymore). It got 10 pounds lighter after I did that. Although, a was a waste of time. And it made my hands all sticky.
Well, Grace wanted to plan a get-together at my house for halloween... and you know... I was planning to trick-or-treat and everything... but honestly, I'm too lazy. I don't want to do it. Besides, I have an essay to finish. Sorry, I'm being a butt, I know. But maybe it'd be better if you did it at someone else's house and you guys can just let me be a loner so i can work on homework and go to sleep early. Maybe I'll change my mind, but as of right now, my state of mind is telling me "ew, halloween--too much effort." I don't really need another thing sucking the little energy I have out of me. Really, I don't have much of it to spare. I have enough to wasting an hour peeling tape of a rifle, but not enough to hang out during halloween... heh... sorry!
Moving on -- last night's tournament!
Uh... well... actually that sentence seems to have a really enthusiastic/happy connoctation in it. Yesterday was NOT a good day.
It's a long story, but in the end... I'm just NOT on good terms with Oscar right now. For anyone who doesn't know, Oscar is gay. You wouldn't know so much from talking to him. He's a pretty manly gay man. But if you want to know what part of him is gay, it's the BITCHY part of him.
I don't know why he does it... but I at least try to be compassionate... he on the other hand, has no sympathy for anyone, whatsoever. He's so narrow-minded. He can't seem to see, that just because HE can do something doesn't automatically mean everyone else can, too. You can't ever try and talk to him about something. He'll just turn it into an argument. He honestly thinks it's MY fault for all the arguments we have. I only get into arguments with HIM!! He gets into arguments with Grace all the time, but I rarely fight with Grace. And the reason is simple: he has a problem with EVERYTHING! And it's everyone else's fault, too! It's never his! Can't I ever ask a simple favor without him getting offended? It would have been nice when I told them I was upset about them always making plans at the very last second, if he had just said "Sorry, I'll make sure not to do it next time." Instead he takes it as an initative to start a fight. Maybe I worded some things harshly, but he really has no right to act the way he does.
And what happened before warm-up... There is absolutely NO excuse for that!
I was sitting RIGHT next to Kat on the bus. YES, she WAS chewing gum. But you know what? Stacy told her to spit it out, and it wasn't a big deal... she was JUST chewing gum.
Really... It's not like it was serious "shit talking" or something. They were probably just trying to be funny... But Jessica and Oscar... why do they have to make such a big deal out of it? Do they seriously pay THAT much attention to her? Do they need to make fun of every single thing she does? I was just standing there... and I hear Jessica and Oscar talking about how "stupid" Kat was being for chewing gum...
Oscar: "Oh my God! Kat was chewing gum!"
Jessica: "Did you see her?!? She was all...."
She mocked a cow chewing--smacking her lips for emphasis.
"Like a retard!"
Stacy: "Who?"
Oscar&Jesica: "KAT!!"
I was just thinking how stupid they were... but then I looked up farther... and Kat was standing right there behind them... in total in disbelief.
I yelled at them... I told them, "She's right there!" But I guess they were too busy making up more stupid reasons to dislike her to hear me the first time. So, I said it louder this time, pointing, "SHE'S RIGHT THERE!!!"
And what Oscar did next... it MUST mean... there is SOMETHING wrong with him. I can't possibly think of an explanation for WHY a human being would behave like this.
He turned his head to where I was pointing. He looked straight at Kat before turning his eyes straight back at me and replied,
"So?"
He had made me cry. And then he had to make Kat cry, too. ME, OK. I'm a strong person, I can deal with it... but Kat... and what he had said... there's no words for that.
As I was trying to make Kat feel better... all I was thinking was, "I TOLD you, so!" Because, she already knew Oscar was a jerk, but most of all she was upset that Jessica was talking about her. On and on, I would hear her say that she really thought Jessica was a "true friend." I kept telling her, trying to warn her--Jessica is NOT your friend! Jessica talks about you. She HATES you! But she didn't listen. I knew one day she was going to have to find out and it was going to hurt her. And sadly, I was right.
These people... there's seriously something wrong with them... And now... I wanna know why I EVER bothered defending these two people. I got so mad at my own brother and sister when they said all these horrible things about Jessica.
You know what?
They were right about her.
And I got so mad at a boy I liked because he said these mean things about Oscar. I was PISSED at him!
But why??
Why should I care about these people who simply don't care about anyone but themselves?
Okay... well, we got a 79.2 at the tournament... Don't know why, the judges were crazy. I KNOW we went up more than 1/10th of a point since last week. I can't believe we didn't break 80... I'm scared we're not gonna make championships...
Today, I didn't do much. I guess I should have been working on my essay due on Wednesday, but I rarely ever get a day to relax. And well, I wasted two hours of that relaxation time peeling off 5 layers of white eletric tape from my fish(mock rifle that no one in the guard uses anymore). It got 10 pounds lighter after I did that. Although, a was a waste of time. And it made my hands all sticky.
Well, Grace wanted to plan a get-together at my house for halloween... and you know... I was planning to trick-or-treat and everything... but honestly, I'm too lazy. I don't want to do it. Besides, I have an essay to finish. Sorry, I'm being a butt, I know. But maybe it'd be better if you did it at someone else's house and you guys can just let me be a loner so i can work on homework and go to sleep early. Maybe I'll change my mind, but as of right now, my state of mind is telling me "ew, halloween--too much effort." I don't really need another thing sucking the little energy I have out of me. Really, I don't have much of it to spare. I have enough to wasting an hour peeling tape of a rifle, but not enough to hang out during halloween... heh... sorry!
Moving on -- last night's tournament!
Uh... well... actually that sentence seems to have a really enthusiastic/happy connoctation in it. Yesterday was NOT a good day.
It's a long story, but in the end... I'm just NOT on good terms with Oscar right now. For anyone who doesn't know, Oscar is gay. You wouldn't know so much from talking to him. He's a pretty manly gay man. But if you want to know what part of him is gay, it's the BITCHY part of him.
I don't know why he does it... but I at least try to be compassionate... he on the other hand, has no sympathy for anyone, whatsoever. He's so narrow-minded. He can't seem to see, that just because HE can do something doesn't automatically mean everyone else can, too. You can't ever try and talk to him about something. He'll just turn it into an argument. He honestly thinks it's MY fault for all the arguments we have. I only get into arguments with HIM!! He gets into arguments with Grace all the time, but I rarely fight with Grace. And the reason is simple: he has a problem with EVERYTHING! And it's everyone else's fault, too! It's never his! Can't I ever ask a simple favor without him getting offended? It would have been nice when I told them I was upset about them always making plans at the very last second, if he had just said "Sorry, I'll make sure not to do it next time." Instead he takes it as an initative to start a fight. Maybe I worded some things harshly, but he really has no right to act the way he does.
And what happened before warm-up... There is absolutely NO excuse for that!
I was sitting RIGHT next to Kat on the bus. YES, she WAS chewing gum. But you know what? Stacy told her to spit it out, and it wasn't a big deal... she was JUST chewing gum.
Really... It's not like it was serious "shit talking" or something. They were probably just trying to be funny... But Jessica and Oscar... why do they have to make such a big deal out of it? Do they seriously pay THAT much attention to her? Do they need to make fun of every single thing she does? I was just standing there... and I hear Jessica and Oscar talking about how "stupid" Kat was being for chewing gum...
Oscar: "Oh my God! Kat was chewing gum!"
Jessica: "Did you see her?!? She was all...."
She mocked a cow chewing--smacking her lips for emphasis.
"Like a retard!"
Stacy: "Who?"
Oscar&Jesica: "KAT!!"
I was just thinking how stupid they were... but then I looked up farther... and Kat was standing right there behind them... in total in disbelief.
I yelled at them... I told them, "She's right there!" But I guess they were too busy making up more stupid reasons to dislike her to hear me the first time. So, I said it louder this time, pointing, "SHE'S RIGHT THERE!!!"
And what Oscar did next... it MUST mean... there is SOMETHING wrong with him. I can't possibly think of an explanation for WHY a human being would behave like this.
He turned his head to where I was pointing. He looked straight at Kat before turning his eyes straight back at me and replied,
"So?"
He had made me cry. And then he had to make Kat cry, too. ME, OK. I'm a strong person, I can deal with it... but Kat... and what he had said... there's no words for that.
As I was trying to make Kat feel better... all I was thinking was, "I TOLD you, so!" Because, she already knew Oscar was a jerk, but most of all she was upset that Jessica was talking about her. On and on, I would hear her say that she really thought Jessica was a "true friend." I kept telling her, trying to warn her--Jessica is NOT your friend! Jessica talks about you. She HATES you! But she didn't listen. I knew one day she was going to have to find out and it was going to hurt her. And sadly, I was right.
These people... there's seriously something wrong with them... And now... I wanna know why I EVER bothered defending these two people. I got so mad at my own brother and sister when they said all these horrible things about Jessica.
You know what?
They were right about her.
And I got so mad at a boy I liked because he said these mean things about Oscar. I was PISSED at him!
But why??
Why should I care about these people who simply don't care about anyone but themselves?
Okay... well, we got a 79.2 at the tournament... Don't know why, the judges were crazy. I KNOW we went up more than 1/10th of a point since last week. I can't believe we didn't break 80... I'm scared we're not gonna make championships...