QUESTi0NS. . .
It's like, the more I get to know this guy-
the more I start to fall.
Argh. It's truly annoying me.
He just seems so . . . PERFECT?
It's silly, because I know no one is perfect.
But . . . He just . . . Arghh.
He's too good to be true.
I've felt this before... It's exactly how I felt about Justin.
Does that mean that he's gonna turn out like Justin? *mthfckr*
It's like, the more and more that I get to know the REAL Emylle-
the more and more I know that my parents will LOVE him.
And the more I know I'm gonna end up falling and falling . . .
WHY?
` He's finished school (even wants to take up another course).
` He has a job (he's been promoted from TEAM LEADER to Regional Manager! After only 4MONTHS?!! My God. So now he has QUEENSLAND, SOUTH AUST & VICTORIA under him-- SHEETTT!)
` He cooks! (he's a CHEF- he took a course in the Philz & has a catering service over there)
` He's SMART.
` He's a hard worker.
` He has MANY GOALS (wants to buy a house next year & a sportscar next year)
` He's Religious!
` He wants to MEET my parents before he lets me even consider being his gf.
` He looks DECENT.
` He's funny.
` He's romantic.
` He's sweet.
` He's kind...
... AND HE LOVES ME!!
Something's telling me that this time . . .
THIS TIME- it REALLY IS SERIOUS.
And it scares me.
IT SCARES ME.
Because-- Am I SERIOUS?
Can I really commit to this, if ever?
Have I really changed my ways?
HAY NAKO!
And what about what all the stuff I said about the guys aged up to 25 that aren't serious?
He's ONLY 20!
Am I just gonna let my defences down and let him in?
Do I let him love me?
More to the point . . .
Do I let myself love him?
Is HE the cute guy I'm waiting for to prove to me that they aren't all the same?