if he's dumb enough to walk away, be smart enough to let go . . .

[selfish_pwnchez]

Sometimes in life..
You just have to SMILE,
Pretend that everything's OKAY,
Hold back the TEARS,
And just WALK AWAY . . .

And that's what I plan to do.
Not because I WANT to..
But because I HAVE to.

You see, when I said that if by July 14, 2008- Justin is still missing, that I WOULD move on..
I MEANT IT.
And TODAY marks that day.

Although, I do take back what

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[currie_pie]

I don't really know what to say, because I don't think I could ever possibly understand what you are feeling. But know that you are brave and pretty and that i love you and I know that you will become a strong independant woman. But I found this on the internet and thought maybe some perpective from someone who is smarter than me might help:

"To let go isn't to forgot, not to think about, or ignore. It doesn't leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. Letting go isn't about winning or losing. It's not about pride and it's not about how you appear, and it's not obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isn't blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and doesn't leave emptiness, hurt, or sadness. It's not about giving in or giving up. Letting go isn't about loss and it's not about defeat. To let go is to cherish the memories, but to overcome and move on. It is having an open mind confidence in the future. Letting go is learning and experiencing and growing. To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry, and made you grow. It's about all that you have, all that you had, and all that you will soon gain. Letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving. Letting go is growing up. It is realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy. To let go is to open a door, and to clear a path and set yourself free."

Good luck Camie, I'm thinking of you

[selfish_pwnchez]

hey rach. . .

thanks for the words of encouragement. . .

it really did put a smile on my face, despite the tears running down my very puffy eyes.

and the quote thing helped as well. . .

whoever wrote it IS a genius! because everything it said really hit me. . . made me cry even MORE, but that's beside the point =)

i think i will be okay. . . or i could just be saying that to bang it into my head so that i'll finally believe myself but hey! =)

i just need to keep myself busy..

like when we go to the CITY on friday! i cannot wait =)

i need to break free from all of this gloomy-ness around me hehe..

i'll see then love!

THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR THE SUPPORT.

and i love you too! xx