back for nothing
Oh my freaking Goddess it is good to get away from those dogs!! They are nice dogs, and generally well behaved, but I am not at all a dog person and I hate having to take care of them.
So like, I got a letter today from the welfare office saying that my medical assistance has been cancelled. Apparently I have been approved to recieve assistance from ODSP (disability) but instead of informing me, they informed the welfare office instead - who promptly cancelled all financial aid. I have not yet been contacted by ODSP and I have no idea how to contact them at this point to find out what the hell is going on. I really hope they get a hold of me and sort out the disability aid that I have supposedly been approved for, before the end of the month, otherwise I will be majorly screwed. On the other hand I am glad that I have been approved for disability pay and will not need welfare for much longer.
Traumatic Stress Progam at the hospital is really good. It is only one hour a week, but now I know why! We cover a lot of stuff and it is in many ways very overwhelming. A lot of the things discussed are triggering and it takes days to sort of "settle down" from it. Well maybe it is just me, but it is a lot to handle and I have never been good with stress anyway.
I have been feeling the usual rollercoaster of feelings, though today it was mostly stress and frustration. I have been having suicidal ideation and weird and disturbing thoughts, but I am not going to hurt myself - I have not even cut, though the desire to do so is strong. I am actually forcing myself to paint. I do not want to do it, because I would rather curl up in bed and sleep, but I also do not want to ruminate and aggravate the tumultuous thoughts and feelings inside of me.
Hate myself, hate the world, broken record, blah, blah, blah...
So like, I got a letter today from the welfare office saying that my medical assistance has been cancelled. Apparently I have been approved to recieve assistance from ODSP (disability) but instead of informing me, they informed the welfare office instead - who promptly cancelled all financial aid. I have not yet been contacted by ODSP and I have no idea how to contact them at this point to find out what the hell is going on. I really hope they get a hold of me and sort out the disability aid that I have supposedly been approved for, before the end of the month, otherwise I will be majorly screwed. On the other hand I am glad that I have been approved for disability pay and will not need welfare for much longer.
Traumatic Stress Progam at the hospital is really good. It is only one hour a week, but now I know why! We cover a lot of stuff and it is in many ways very overwhelming. A lot of the things discussed are triggering and it takes days to sort of "settle down" from it. Well maybe it is just me, but it is a lot to handle and I have never been good with stress anyway.
I have been feeling the usual rollercoaster of feelings, though today it was mostly stress and frustration. I have been having suicidal ideation and weird and disturbing thoughts, but I am not going to hurt myself - I have not even cut, though the desire to do so is strong. I am actually forcing myself to paint. I do not want to do it, because I would rather curl up in bed and sleep, but I also do not want to ruminate and aggravate the tumultuous thoughts and feelings inside of me.
Hate myself, hate the world, broken record, blah, blah, blah...