For Shari, because i'm angry and hurt
Things that my former friend Shari has done to me that has hurt:
- accusing me of stealing when i did not
- accusing me of lying about stealing when i did not
- stealing my Lost Boys DVD and lying about it
- calling me crazy and hanging up on me when i asked her why she thought i stole her stuff while trying to get my Lost Boys DVD back (this hurt the most)
- getting her friend Bean to prank call my apartment and pretending to be a police officer (this may not have happened, but logical deduction and paranoia has me believing otherwise.)
- prank calling my apartment
- vandalizing my apartment windows with salad dressing and eggs while i was at work
- prank calling my parent's home number
- denying any and all responsibility of aforementioned behaviour (even though i actually have proof of the prank calling)
- accusing me of doing all sorts of things to her when i was a loyal, trusting (if shy, relusive and depressed) friend
Shari, you and were always misplacing stuff when we lived together. Hell, we used to joke about it. I wish i could prove to you that i did not steal your stuff to give you peace of mind, but even if i could i don't believe it would make a difference now because you have hurt me too many times since then and i don't suppose you would believe me anyway. That and you only seem to remember things that convienence you, not how things actually are, which it really frustrating.
The only thing that i can think that brought about your unjust hatred is when i was looking for Kiki's cat toy when we first moved in together and i was looking under your bed when you came home from work. I knew that i shouldn't go into your room because you had told me about the psycho, prying roommates in your past (speaking of which, how was living with psycho-bitch Cathy?) but i did anyway and it really was one of the most embarassing moments of my life - especially when i actually found the fucking cat toy under the bed in my room. It definately reinforced my belief in respecting other people's personal space, even if it was a confirmation come too late.
It did look kinda suspicious and it was a betrayal of trust to go into your room uninvited - even for such a genuinely innocent act of looking for a cat toy - and i have wished almost everyday since then that i had not done that. I did try to explain myself and i think i said i was sorry (and if not, know that i am) and even though it greatly hurt my pride when you put that lock on your door, it was completely justified. You where protecting you personal space and you wanted to feel safe in your own home. I can accept it if you hate me for this incident, but other than this i swear that i never intentionally hurt you. I really can't say anything else because there is nothing else and i don't suppose you would believe me anyway.
But does the cat toy incident make up for the hurt and betrayal (listed above) you put me through later?
Not entirely, but some of it is understandable because you are an immature, insecure person just trying to protect yourself in any way possible. It is a learned behaviour from being abused as a child. I am the same in a lot of ways, though i can proudly say that i have never gone out of my way to harass someone and make their life a living hell, especially when they are already depressed.
I want to continue this rant, but i am exhausted and sick of talking to the darkness. You were no where near as bad as psycho-bitch Cathy, but i'm still angry at you both. I am not the source of YOUR problems, no matter how much believing so makes you feel better.
But none of this rant matters because, i assume, you won't believe me anyway.
- accusing me of stealing when i did not
- accusing me of lying about stealing when i did not
- stealing my Lost Boys DVD and lying about it
- calling me crazy and hanging up on me when i asked her why she thought i stole her stuff while trying to get my Lost Boys DVD back (this hurt the most)
- getting her friend Bean to prank call my apartment and pretending to be a police officer (this may not have happened, but logical deduction and paranoia has me believing otherwise.)
- prank calling my apartment
- vandalizing my apartment windows with salad dressing and eggs while i was at work
- prank calling my parent's home number
- denying any and all responsibility of aforementioned behaviour (even though i actually have proof of the prank calling)
- accusing me of doing all sorts of things to her when i was a loyal, trusting (if shy, relusive and depressed) friend
Shari, you and were always misplacing stuff when we lived together. Hell, we used to joke about it. I wish i could prove to you that i did not steal your stuff to give you peace of mind, but even if i could i don't believe it would make a difference now because you have hurt me too many times since then and i don't suppose you would believe me anyway. That and you only seem to remember things that convienence you, not how things actually are, which it really frustrating.
The only thing that i can think that brought about your unjust hatred is when i was looking for Kiki's cat toy when we first moved in together and i was looking under your bed when you came home from work. I knew that i shouldn't go into your room because you had told me about the psycho, prying roommates in your past (speaking of which, how was living with psycho-bitch Cathy?) but i did anyway and it really was one of the most embarassing moments of my life - especially when i actually found the fucking cat toy under the bed in my room. It definately reinforced my belief in respecting other people's personal space, even if it was a confirmation come too late.
It did look kinda suspicious and it was a betrayal of trust to go into your room uninvited - even for such a genuinely innocent act of looking for a cat toy - and i have wished almost everyday since then that i had not done that. I did try to explain myself and i think i said i was sorry (and if not, know that i am) and even though it greatly hurt my pride when you put that lock on your door, it was completely justified. You where protecting you personal space and you wanted to feel safe in your own home. I can accept it if you hate me for this incident, but other than this i swear that i never intentionally hurt you. I really can't say anything else because there is nothing else and i don't suppose you would believe me anyway.
But does the cat toy incident make up for the hurt and betrayal (listed above) you put me through later?
Not entirely, but some of it is understandable because you are an immature, insecure person just trying to protect yourself in any way possible. It is a learned behaviour from being abused as a child. I am the same in a lot of ways, though i can proudly say that i have never gone out of my way to harass someone and make their life a living hell, especially when they are already depressed.
I want to continue this rant, but i am exhausted and sick of talking to the darkness. You were no where near as bad as psycho-bitch Cathy, but i'm still angry at you both. I am not the source of YOUR problems, no matter how much believing so makes you feel better.
But none of this rant matters because, i assume, you won't believe me anyway.