Jan 08, 2011 08:44
Began this morning realizing that i have none of my go-to, keeps me full cereal. I have bread for toast, and a bit of peanut butter would add protien, but just feeling blah about it. It feels so ridiculous to force myself to eat when I don't feel like it, but the adult part of me recognizes that a) I need to eat with all the meds I take, and b.) I have to face the grocery store this morning (doing so hungry is a very bad idea).
Ah, the dreaded grocery store. I have a list, but I know I don't have enough meals planned. I do not generally like cooking, and my repertoire is limited. The good news is D is cooking on the weekends. His food is generally not geared toward being healthy, but my goal with that is to work on my portions with his meals. Despite my worries, I'll do fine at the grocery. The only real decisions I need to make are healthy snacks to take when I leave for the day.
I sound like such a worrier, and maybe I am right now. In reality I don't think it has to do with breafast or the grocery. I'm making some real changes in my unhealthy habits and that scares me. I'm also getting ready to begin my final semester of college at 36 years old. Graduating terrifies me for many reasons. The good news is that as I work through my fear, I'm moving forward.