Give Up
Question of the Day:
Do you give up on the things that you can't change or do you still try to change them?
It's an interesting bugger.
And an interesting weekend. I went with Evan to Austin-- the mecca of all things good. After picking up tickets from my brother, we showed up at his parent's place. No one was home, and after some serious thinking, we realized that Evan's dad was at work, and Evan's mom was out of town. Evan's dad came home, we talked a bit, and headed out to the show.
Amazingly enough, we showed up right before Canvas was supposed to go on. We tried to get into it, but... I guess I just could tell that Evan really didn't want to be there, and I was excited, but... wishing that it were a smaller place. I guess it was just weird seeing Canvas play SUCH a short set, and for such a large crowd, with only a FEW Canvas fans. Although the band was playing very well... it seems like the vocals weren't turned up enough. It just didn't sound right, and I couldn't really hear Joseph.
Blue went on, and I realized that we were surrounded by these sorority chicks and frat guys who were singing along to the music, and... it was just sad. The concert made me miss Audra, and going to shows with Audra, and smaller shows, and feeling real, and not feeling like everyone is feeling what you're feeling because liking Blue October is the thing for the next month and a half.
We walked away jaded.
And I vowed that it was the last live show that we'll go to, just 5591 after this.
I don't know what it is about sleeping though. I haven't been sleeping well. I have been having some fucked up dreams ever since I saw Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind. And I don't know why. I just have really vivid dreams, and then wake up feeling tired. I don't know how to make it go away. Even if I go to sleep very very late, I still end up with these dreams, and I wake up feeling very disoriented.
Who knows, but that could be part of the reason why I am in a bad mood, and just... annoyed.
I had a job interview on Friday, and it went okay. I am still pretty worried, but I guess I will hear back on Thursday or Friday. Hopefully I will make it to the second round of interviews. The interview was shorter than I anticipated. Also, I think that I might have wowed them with my knowledge and feminist-ness. If that makes sense. I am still applying left and right. I am hoping for the best, but who knows.
I want to change my living situation, but I know that I can just deal with it until I move. I want to change how people view choice, but I know that people will always believe what they want. I want to change how I live my life (eat healthier and such), but I feel like right now, I don't have the time. There is a lot that I want to change, I just feel like I can't do anything right now.
Do you give up on the things that you can't change or do you still try to change them?
It's an interesting bugger.
And an interesting weekend. I went with Evan to Austin-- the mecca of all things good. After picking up tickets from my brother, we showed up at his parent's place. No one was home, and after some serious thinking, we realized that Evan's dad was at work, and Evan's mom was out of town. Evan's dad came home, we talked a bit, and headed out to the show.
Amazingly enough, we showed up right before Canvas was supposed to go on. We tried to get into it, but... I guess I just could tell that Evan really didn't want to be there, and I was excited, but... wishing that it were a smaller place. I guess it was just weird seeing Canvas play SUCH a short set, and for such a large crowd, with only a FEW Canvas fans. Although the band was playing very well... it seems like the vocals weren't turned up enough. It just didn't sound right, and I couldn't really hear Joseph.
Blue went on, and I realized that we were surrounded by these sorority chicks and frat guys who were singing along to the music, and... it was just sad. The concert made me miss Audra, and going to shows with Audra, and smaller shows, and feeling real, and not feeling like everyone is feeling what you're feeling because liking Blue October is the thing for the next month and a half.
We walked away jaded.
And I vowed that it was the last live show that we'll go to, just 5591 after this.
I don't know what it is about sleeping though. I haven't been sleeping well. I have been having some fucked up dreams ever since I saw Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind. And I don't know why. I just have really vivid dreams, and then wake up feeling tired. I don't know how to make it go away. Even if I go to sleep very very late, I still end up with these dreams, and I wake up feeling very disoriented.
Who knows, but that could be part of the reason why I am in a bad mood, and just... annoyed.
I had a job interview on Friday, and it went okay. I am still pretty worried, but I guess I will hear back on Thursday or Friday. Hopefully I will make it to the second round of interviews. The interview was shorter than I anticipated. Also, I think that I might have wowed them with my knowledge and feminist-ness. If that makes sense. I am still applying left and right. I am hoping for the best, but who knows.
I want to change my living situation, but I know that I can just deal with it until I move. I want to change how people view choice, but I know that people will always believe what they want. I want to change how I live my life (eat healthier and such), but I feel like right now, I don't have the time. There is a lot that I want to change, I just feel like I can't do anything right now.