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I've been feeling out-of-the-ordinarily angsty this week. So I thought to myself, self, what did I dod to help alleviate the angst of my life when it seemed so much more prevalent? Ah yes, a lj entry.
Shell and stryker are no deemed officially lame, since they rejected my internship applications. the truth is, since i don't even really want to work for anyone this summer and was just doing the internship apps for fun, i don't know why it's bothering me so much. I think it's just they're not realizing how fucking cool I am, in addition to my feeling of rejection from several friends and my feeling of loss of control of my life and making future decisions for it. and the (irrational) fear that I won't be able to take/complete/pass the emt course, and even if I do that I won't be able to find a job anywhere. and that I won't be able to get good grades and won't be able to get into medical school, and that if i do i'll be miserable and alone forever and never have a family. all concerns that i realize are STUPID but that are in my mind regardless.
i blame the horniness.
Shell and stryker are no deemed officially lame, since they rejected my internship applications. the truth is, since i don't even really want to work for anyone this summer and was just doing the internship apps for fun, i don't know why it's bothering me so much. I think it's just they're not realizing how fucking cool I am, in addition to my feeling of rejection from several friends and my feeling of loss of control of my life and making future decisions for it. and the (irrational) fear that I won't be able to take/complete/pass the emt course, and even if I do that I won't be able to find a job anywhere. and that I won't be able to get good grades and won't be able to get into medical school, and that if i do i'll be miserable and alone forever and never have a family. all concerns that i realize are STUPID but that are in my mind regardless.
i blame the horniness.