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I'm really upset by what's happening in Israel now, and I feel so impotent. I'm seriously considering going back to work in MDA, but truthfully I'm afraid, and am trying to come up with reasons why my going won't really be that helpful. When it all comes down to it, I'm afraid of what I will experience and what I might see, and I'm not sure whether it's the kind fo fear I should try to overcome or the kind I should succumb to. Additionally, I'm still not feeling like I belong back here, and think I'm projecting a bit. I guess I'm just frustrated at the thought of what my friends in Haifa are going through, and I just want to be there to drink coffee with them and hug them and work with them. And compared to ambulance work, research at the university just seems so useless.