OK Universe, I Get It
Much as I am very anti-new age philosophy and don't really see the value in the Law of Attraction (not that I begrudge anyone who wants to believe in and use those theories), I have to admit there is a way to interpret the recent events of my life as a message from the universe/whatever-omnipotent-being-there-may-be.
There's no denying that I was thinking about another avenue for income from about the second day I restarted my freelance work. I remembered almost immediately how boring and nonfulfilling it was. While there's no denying it was a sweet setup, I remembered that it was not for me. But I didn't do anything about that, besides revel in the fact that I was back to a comfortable standard of living.
So the universe, pissed that I was settling yet again, threw an oncoming Corrolla at me. And financially crippled me again. Then it removed my comfortable source of income. I shudder to think what it would have hit me with next had I not decided to seriously pursue employment in film or TV. But I did. So then it supplied me with a promotion at the cafe that would allow me to do so. And now I find, my freelancing company has work again and I should be back on my feet again soon.
Which I take to mean as follows: I had better not lose focus again. I have had a week here to sit and think about what I am supposed to be doing and to remember who I am and to remember what this life I am looking for takes and what it can give. I also take it to mean that it may take a while, which is why it provided me with another source of income, but I think it also wants me to work on my personal film projects more seriously.
OK, Universe, you are the boss. I see you have my best interests at heart and you are just looking out for me. I will try to do the best I can and remember what my goals are.
On the other hand, it's hard for me to look at these events and see how many other people they affected and say that they were all orchestrated to achieve this one thing that focuses on only me. At the very least, I think if that was the idea, then the events that affected the other people involved had different meanings for all of them, in which case the Supreme Being is one talented and organized motherfucker.
~The Rock Star's head is swirling from all this and needs a nap.
There's no denying that I was thinking about another avenue for income from about the second day I restarted my freelance work. I remembered almost immediately how boring and nonfulfilling it was. While there's no denying it was a sweet setup, I remembered that it was not for me. But I didn't do anything about that, besides revel in the fact that I was back to a comfortable standard of living.
So the universe, pissed that I was settling yet again, threw an oncoming Corrolla at me. And financially crippled me again. Then it removed my comfortable source of income. I shudder to think what it would have hit me with next had I not decided to seriously pursue employment in film or TV. But I did. So then it supplied me with a promotion at the cafe that would allow me to do so. And now I find, my freelancing company has work again and I should be back on my feet again soon.
Which I take to mean as follows: I had better not lose focus again. I have had a week here to sit and think about what I am supposed to be doing and to remember who I am and to remember what this life I am looking for takes and what it can give. I also take it to mean that it may take a while, which is why it provided me with another source of income, but I think it also wants me to work on my personal film projects more seriously.
OK, Universe, you are the boss. I see you have my best interests at heart and you are just looking out for me. I will try to do the best I can and remember what my goals are.
On the other hand, it's hard for me to look at these events and see how many other people they affected and say that they were all orchestrated to achieve this one thing that focuses on only me. At the very least, I think if that was the idea, then the events that affected the other people involved had different meanings for all of them, in which case the Supreme Being is one talented and organized motherfucker.
~The Rock Star's head is swirling from all this and needs a nap.