Baby's condition was getting worse; she was rapidly losing weight, and while that stabilized somewhat, the abscess on her chest wasn't getting any better, and was bleeding all over. Because she was an older cat, I was hesitant to have her go under the knife. Both financially and physically, I didn't think it could be done. Eventually, however, I ( Read more... )

It's been a while. 8 months exactly, actually ( Read more... )

Another birthday. Spending it working -- they wouldn't give me the day off. Lack of concern rather than lack of want or ability, really. The new leadership at Best Buy is a little... disillusioned. Between everything, we are basically left to fend for ourselves ( Read more... )

Watched Captain America late, today. And let me tell you, the venture was horrible. I underestimated how much time I had to kill before Tom got out of work, and spent too much time wandering a work-related area. Even walking all the way to Target, and all the way back, I had more time to kill than I knew what to do with ( Read more... )

As life goes by, by now, everything seems to have the volume turned down. I don't get nervous over occurrences, anxious over much (Aside from gramma), and I'm not excited by much anything ( Read more... )

Gramma is doing fine, however I am still distraught, generally. My general anxiety won't leave me, and robs me of my ability to function. It's lulled to a dull nagging that flares up at times ( Read more... )

Gramma wasn't feeling well. It's frequent that something is bugging her, one way or another, and she hates doctors and hospitals, so she doesn't want to go, ever. When she DOES, her first instinct is to refuse all treatment ( Read more... )

I tend to ignore and forget the day-to-day, in favor of the big picture or long run, but the day-to-day matters in the long run. John Lennon said "Life is what happens to you when you're busy making other plans". I find myself forgetting what I will eventually realize to be basically my entire life, casting it out as trivial or irrelevant. Like ( Read more... )

I tried to stay apathetic to the holiday season, yet as it draws to a close, with 20 minutes to midnight, I still get semantic. Watching this culmination of so many people celebrating always gets to me. And honestly, even before I witnessed, or was reminded of it, I was feeling anxious ( Read more... )

Very weird dream ( Read more... )