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I don't know when or if this happened. But I heard someone say that when someone asks what issue matters least to you, without giving you options to choose from, it's impossible to give the topic you care least about because your brain is wired to give one of the things you've recently thought about. I think I might have been dreaming when I heard this so the science prefacing the statement may just be BS, but I wonder if it's true. Maybe its just impossible because there are so many things we dont care about that we dont really not care about one more than the other.
I got into Cornell, UCLA, UC Berkeley, and other UCs. Brown and Stanford rejected me while Johns Hopkins put me on the waiting list. It's between UCLA and Berkeley for me though I'm having trouble deciding. Every time I think I'm leaning one way I automatically thing of the benefits of going to the other. I should submit my SIRs before break ends though. How lame are breaks in high school? Well, at least traditional track. I hate having only one week off. I hate thinking about the future. Makes me feel like I'm going to screw up. Maybe I shouldn't try to be a doctor, even my dad doesn't feel like supporting the idea anymore, and I only entertained the idea because of him. Yet what else is there to do. A pharmaceutical researcher makes significantly less than a general practitioner or a surgeon, and I can't imagine myself doing anything else. I wish for security, but I don't want to grow up yet.
I got into Cornell, UCLA, UC Berkeley, and other UCs. Brown and Stanford rejected me while Johns Hopkins put me on the waiting list. It's between UCLA and Berkeley for me though I'm having trouble deciding. Every time I think I'm leaning one way I automatically thing of the benefits of going to the other. I should submit my SIRs before break ends though. How lame are breaks in high school? Well, at least traditional track. I hate having only one week off. I hate thinking about the future. Makes me feel like I'm going to screw up. Maybe I shouldn't try to be a doctor, even my dad doesn't feel like supporting the idea anymore, and I only entertained the idea because of him. Yet what else is there to do. A pharmaceutical researcher makes significantly less than a general practitioner or a surgeon, and I can't imagine myself doing anything else. I wish for security, but I don't want to grow up yet.