Mistakes
I think I have finally realized that I really did mess up.
Keeping up with school is actually very very easy. Compared to probably almost every other school here. I mean, I have Monday/Wednesday/Friday classes and Tuesday/Thursday. Rarely do I have to do homework for Tues/Thurs. Meaning, every after school I have time to homework from the major classes I have to worry about: Mon/Wed/Fri. But I still neglect to even put the slightest effort into anything. I hate it when I look back at what a shitty student I was over the years and how the lessons and assignments were so damn easy, but going on to wasting a whole semester grade sleeping. Now I think I'll look back at myself now and say the same thing. Today in particular I really failed. Failure. No other way to put it. I got home and fell asleep immediately, knowing I had homework. The only thing I saw when I got to my room was my bed, even though the room was scorching hot. So I slept until 11 Pm last night(to be correct) and woke up. Everyone else was going to sleep. I still had a lot of homework to do that I knew needed to be done. I had mapped out exactly how I was going to do it and in what order.
Instead, I made Pesto Spaghetti and went on the computer. My intentions were to simply put on some music but I got carried away in so many things. I've been up since 11 and it's 3 in the morning now, still obviously alive and kicking because of all the sleep I got. I tried doing calculus homework but my brain doesn't work and I think the book made some typos, so I'm essentially going in circles. We have a quiz tomorrow and it's going to account for a lot of my grade this quarter. That's only half of what I have to do.
Anyway I think I'm just going to stay home tomorrow. I'll catch up on rest, try to get away from other problems at school, do homework, try to get things straight. For now I think I'll try and get some kind of sleep and convince my parents I don't feel well tomorrow. If a day is all it takes to get straight then I'm happy with that. For some reason I feel cut off from life again, and I notice I hardly talk to people as much anymore. I still can't compute if it's because of they don't like me, I don't like them, or it's mutual.
"Slide" has kept me sane for weeks now and is an excellent sleep number. It is inconceivable how fast more than 8 minutes of my life can go by. The PV is also an excellent rendition of the piece in visual form, which you can view on PaperBagLunchBox's website in the discography section, or just click here. There is so much I can say about this song, the mood it evokes, the pictures it brings up, it's atmosphere: but I think I will leave it to you to figure out your own personification for it.
Oh, and I also wrote a short story recently, or at least part of it. I still havent fully decided if it will be ongoing. I can't say much of it here because I've already compiled my thoughts and descriptions in the introduction page. It's entitled "Ramen Shop Girl" and could probably be described in a few words as "very Hideki". With that, you can read it here. Still working on putting my simfiles online, but this story should suffice in the meantime. Please let me know how it is, I understand it isn't award winning but any form of criticism is accepted.
Now I will try to get some sleep.
~Hideki~
Keeping up with school is actually very very easy. Compared to probably almost every other school here. I mean, I have Monday/Wednesday/Friday classes and Tuesday/Thursday. Rarely do I have to do homework for Tues/Thurs. Meaning, every after school I have time to homework from the major classes I have to worry about: Mon/Wed/Fri. But I still neglect to even put the slightest effort into anything. I hate it when I look back at what a shitty student I was over the years and how the lessons and assignments were so damn easy, but going on to wasting a whole semester grade sleeping. Now I think I'll look back at myself now and say the same thing. Today in particular I really failed. Failure. No other way to put it. I got home and fell asleep immediately, knowing I had homework. The only thing I saw when I got to my room was my bed, even though the room was scorching hot. So I slept until 11 Pm last night(to be correct) and woke up. Everyone else was going to sleep. I still had a lot of homework to do that I knew needed to be done. I had mapped out exactly how I was going to do it and in what order.
Instead, I made Pesto Spaghetti and went on the computer. My intentions were to simply put on some music but I got carried away in so many things. I've been up since 11 and it's 3 in the morning now, still obviously alive and kicking because of all the sleep I got. I tried doing calculus homework but my brain doesn't work and I think the book made some typos, so I'm essentially going in circles. We have a quiz tomorrow and it's going to account for a lot of my grade this quarter. That's only half of what I have to do.
Anyway I think I'm just going to stay home tomorrow. I'll catch up on rest, try to get away from other problems at school, do homework, try to get things straight. For now I think I'll try and get some kind of sleep and convince my parents I don't feel well tomorrow. If a day is all it takes to get straight then I'm happy with that. For some reason I feel cut off from life again, and I notice I hardly talk to people as much anymore. I still can't compute if it's because of they don't like me, I don't like them, or it's mutual.
"Slide" has kept me sane for weeks now and is an excellent sleep number. It is inconceivable how fast more than 8 minutes of my life can go by. The PV is also an excellent rendition of the piece in visual form, which you can view on PaperBagLunchBox's website in the discography section, or just click here. There is so much I can say about this song, the mood it evokes, the pictures it brings up, it's atmosphere: but I think I will leave it to you to figure out your own personification for it.
Oh, and I also wrote a short story recently, or at least part of it. I still havent fully decided if it will be ongoing. I can't say much of it here because I've already compiled my thoughts and descriptions in the introduction page. It's entitled "Ramen Shop Girl" and could probably be described in a few words as "very Hideki". With that, you can read it here. Still working on putting my simfiles online, but this story should suffice in the meantime. Please let me know how it is, I understand it isn't award winning but any form of criticism is accepted.
Now I will try to get some sleep.
~Hideki~