Nerves
Life.
Is? It seems difficult. I am finding that all the wonder and beauty I see is stretched thin. Perhaps I am just tired. To much gaming online. LOL need some sleep. I am excited about some events, tired with others. I have been in this permanent state of limbo since last October when the moving first began. Limbo is a state I dislike. It makes me uncomfortable. Limbo is a beautiful thing in it's place. However, nearly one year is too long for my nerves. I feel like a bundle of them, ready to snap at everything and yet just wanting peace.
I am excited, because it looks as though finally the circling pool will open up to a river, and I look forwards to the opportunities. I am still, not there yet though, and probably, possibly, will find my nerves still wound until I arrive in open, flowing waters once more.
Perhaps what I really need is a long day by myself, but not indoors gaming or writing... outside... in trees, on the grass, breathing in damp cool air.
Ahhh - see this is why i moved back home. Everything is much more vivid here. Maybe Sunday I could go to a park....
Is? It seems difficult. I am finding that all the wonder and beauty I see is stretched thin. Perhaps I am just tired. To much gaming online. LOL need some sleep. I am excited about some events, tired with others. I have been in this permanent state of limbo since last October when the moving first began. Limbo is a state I dislike. It makes me uncomfortable. Limbo is a beautiful thing in it's place. However, nearly one year is too long for my nerves. I feel like a bundle of them, ready to snap at everything and yet just wanting peace.
I am excited, because it looks as though finally the circling pool will open up to a river, and I look forwards to the opportunities. I am still, not there yet though, and probably, possibly, will find my nerves still wound until I arrive in open, flowing waters once more.
Perhaps what I really need is a long day by myself, but not indoors gaming or writing... outside... in trees, on the grass, breathing in damp cool air.
Ahhh - see this is why i moved back home. Everything is much more vivid here. Maybe Sunday I could go to a park....