Safe (Lost Memory) - Hidden Part IV 1/2
Title: Safe (Lost Memory) - Hidden Part
Pairing: Sehun/Kai
Rating: R
Summary: Kai blamed Sehun for not being able to remember. Sehun blamed himself and drowned in alcohol. They kissed by accident. And more accidents followed.A/N: It's a hidden part after Part IV, hence Part IV 1/2. LOL Sorry I just had to write something because I currently have exams and can't update that soon >:| Hope this will do.
It took Kai exactly 3 minutes to recover from the shock the drunk Sehun inflicted on him. He stared at the blank space in front of him, his lips slightly parted, numb from the cold that still ghosted above them due to the soft pressure put by Sehun’s own. He blinked and shook his head from the trance. He looked back to see Sehun’s face still squashed on the sheets. He helped him up and this time, making sure he didn’t fall on top of him again. He put him on his back in a piggy-back ride style, clasping his hands tightly in front of him and carried him over to the bathroom. They kept falling and hitting walls when they reached the sacred bathroom. Sehun had no control of his weight and, even if Kai can carry him, he still was hard to control. Sehun kept bumping onto Kai, his lips pressing to different parts of Kai’s body, his neck, his hand, his shoulder, as he tried to steady him. Kai was aware of everything but he was more focused on keeping Sehun in balance. He bumped his forehead onto his and Kai let out an “ouch”. The drunken guy just unknowingly stumbled towards the abused cop.
Sehun’s legs wobbled when Kai put him down, making him sit on the toilet bowl as he supported him with one hand. Sehun threw his head back, his mouth half open with his eyes still closed. Kai wanted to be disgusted at how wasted he is but instead he felt more amused at the situation.
“If you can’t drink, don’t do it.” Kai tsk-ed at the still high Sehun.
Sehun moaned in reply.
Kai pushed him back gently when he almost fell. “Smells so bad.” He shook his head.
He ran down the water so he could get Sehun to sober up. He started unbuttoning his top but Sehun couldn’t keep steady that he keeps catching him whenever he falls, and he falls on him instead. They both dropped to the floor. It was a good thing Kai has a good patience or else he would have let him drown in the toilet bowl.
He stood and pulled him up face to face with him. Sehun had his eyes half open, but whether he was conscious or not, Kai doesn’t know. Sehun let out a groan and leaned on Kai for support. He slumped to his shoulders and hiccupped. Kai was pushed back to the wall by Sehun’s weight. The wasted one’s polo dangling by one shoulder as it revealed a milky flawless skin. It was already very deep into the night and he was sure the cold crept up to their feet and it sent shivers to Sehun’s exposed body. To which he responded by burying his face deeper onto Kai’s neck.
“Sehun.” Kai called him to awaken his senses but it was no good when he let out another hiccup.
Kai pushed him away a bit and Sehun almost toppled backwards. The other caught him immediately by the arm and pulled him back. The impact made Kai hit his head on the wall but it wasn’t the reason why his eyes widened. Sehun had caught his lips again by his own and they were pressed together on the cold wall. The contact is light and soft, Kai almost didn’t feel bothered by it at all. They stood there, frozen and stiff from the coldness that cling to their skin from the wall and tiled floor. If Kai would have to describe it, it was a sweet kiss. But an accidental kiss, he corrected himself. He counted from five to one in his head and prepared himself to push the guy reeking of alcohol away from him, from his abused, maltreated lips. He reached one when something he didn’t expect happen, not as if he expected any of it.
Sehun moved his lips over the stunned ones of Kai’s. He was too drunk to do it right but he was kissing him nonetheless. He had his eyes closed into an expression of deep concentration with his eyebrows furrowed. Kai would have laughed at his face if he wasn’t too shocked at his current situation. There he was, pressed to the wall by a guy who drowned himself in alcohol, and is now being the victim of his inner kissing monster self. He is a cop, someone everybody looks up to, and yet he’s just there silently being manhandled by a weak boy with amnesia who can’t take up insults thrown at him like a man that resulted into him drinking a whole bottle of alcohol he can’t actually deal with. Kai couldn’t process what’s actually happening when he has never kissed a man in his life, but there was nothing his mind had found to protest about. It was weird but he let Sehun do whatever he was doing, unconsciously. He was currently giving him a sloppy wet kiss, his top almost gone as it dangled by an inch from his shoulder. Kai felt Sehun’s lips focus on his bottom lip, taking it in, sucking a bit, and nibbling on it at times. He closed his own eyes and just ignored it. He felt his hands hold Sehun steady when he felt him slipping. He could stop him if he wanted to, but he wasn’t sure why he has done nothing yet. Half a minute has passed and Sehun just kept going. As if Kai blocked out all the reasons in his head, he tried to kiss back. The first time made him taste the alcohol in Sehun’s mouth. He can feel the traces of wet kisses from around his mouth. He met Sehun with his lips when the other opened his mouth more to kiss every part of his lips. He felt how his lips were so soft when it was his turn to suck on his lower lip. Their eyes were both closed and he was getting intoxicated just by Sehun’s smell and the taste of his mouth. The third time was more forceful as he pulled the younger to him, clutching him by the arm and pressed his unclothed upper body onto him harder. Sehun responded by putting more pressure between their lips. Kai was about to kiss him back the fourth time when he heard a gurgling sound in Sehun’s throat.
“Shit.” Kai immediately reacted and pushed Sehun away from him, not letting go of his arms in case he falls, and Sehun did it again, this time gagging a bit.
Kai immediately pulled him to the sink and Sehun reached it on time. He threw up. Once. Twice. Thrice. The other rubbed his back to help him and the room smelled nauseous. Kai had forgotten about what just happened as he aided Sehun’s new problem. When a few good minutes had passed and Sehun has entirely thrown up everything he had eaten and drank the whole day, Kai sat him back on the toilet bowl and reached for the towel to wipe his face. He knelt in front of him as he dried Sehun’s face and upper half of water.
“Who actually told you to drink this much?” He scolded him for the nth time.
Sehun opened his eyes, his eyelids heavy and droopy. “I’m useless.” He started. Kai was taken aback at his first audible words. “He hates me.” He hiccupped again.
It took awhile before Kai realized who he was talking about. He sighed.
“He’s right. I’m useless. I can’t do anything.” Hiccup. “I got him mad.” Hiccup. “I’m a big disappointment.” Hiccup. Kai didn’t miss the tears forming at the corners of his eyes. Maybe Sehun isn’t really aware of anything right now, but his feelings aren’t fake.
“I disappointed him.” Hiccup. “I only want him to appreciate me.” Hiccup. “But I can’t do anything right.” Hiccup. “Stupid.” He was sobbing now. Kai just listened. “Useless. Worthless.” He repeated the same words Kai had told him. It made him feel guilty. Even though Sehun fails a lot, he’s still someone who has feelings. And Kai had completely neglected that. “Useless and worthless.” Sehun kept repeating. “Useless…” He cried involuntarily.
Kai gritted his teeth as his emotions played out in from of him. When Sehun didn’t stop crying, he collected him to his arms and hugged him really tight. There were no words he could find to comfort him, but instead, he passed the message through his warm embrace.
He carried him back to his bedroom when he has finally calmed down. He dressed him up with pyjamas and put a cooling gel on his forehead to lessen the headache he will get later on. Sehun collapsed immediately on his bed and fell asleep, too exhausted from too much crying and being drunk at the same time. Kai sat beside his bed and stared at the sleeping form of Sehun. He held his hand.
“I’m really sorry, Sehun.” Kai whispered to the silent room. “I’m the useless guy here. I wanted you to recover fast but I don’t do anything to help you. Instead I just forced you to do things out of your limits. I’m the one at fault. Maybe I just couldn’t accept what they’re trying to tell me.” He remembered how he was insulted and belittled back at the office by his commanders from the US. It was just too hard for him to accept it for himself and passed the blame to Sehun. But he knew he was the one at fault. “It won’t happen again. You’re not disappointing me. I’m disappointing myself and you.” He could hear Sehun’s soft shallow breaths and knows that the other is deep asleep. Whatever he has said, he never heard it. Kai’s hold in his hand tightens. “Sweat dreams, Sehun.”
He stood and gave him a kiss on the cheek. He decided to stay for the night. Kai sat closer to the bed without letting go of Sehun’s hand, and rested his head on the same pillow Sehun is lying on. Sehun was too close that Kai’s face fell to his shoulder, on the crook of his neck. He fell asleep inhaling Sehun, a mix of mint and alcohol, and a soft aroma of his shampoo. It soothed him to sleep.
*Sorry if it's random and sudden.
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