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Today I began to realize just how long a month really is...can I really hold out? I'd like to think that I can....my real question is, will she..? Will she remember what she had before she left? Or will I just become a voice to her, or even worse....just words? What more can I do....not a whole lot. All I can really do at this point is keep myself busy, which I plan to do, and just wait it out. In other news, I went into work today, and was told by one of my 4 bosses, "Oh, I didn't realize I asked you to come in on Saturdays at all....how about this, until May, I'll call you if I need you to come in." That basically means, I want to save some money, so take a long vacation till next summer. Let's see....what else do I have to keep myself busy in the meantime until January 19th....that show I'll be doing, one other concert, a couple of church services, and that's about it. I'll probably take my car apart a couple of times and put it back together, just for something to do, and I'll wash it like every day. I think I can do this, just need to keep my mind on other things, and not wonder what she's doing all the time....I might start to seem obsessive.... I'm really not, I just like her a lot, and I really want things to work out between us. Oh well, I'm done.
~Sehnsucht