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Tonight, I brought her to the airport. I was sad, maybe a little pathetic....but I was good, I didn't blubber or anything. We got there really early, and once she got her bags checked, we kinda sat around and talked for a while, just about things, like we always do. I eventually showed her up to the security, where I had to let her go on her own. I said our good byes, and I stayed strong...heh. I watched her go through the security point, and then I left. I ran into a friend of my mother's, and talked to him for a couple of minutes. Then, I went on my way. As I was driving out of the airport...something told me that something could be wrong and to turn around, but I said to myself, "No, let her be, she's a big girl, just go home." So, I went home. I came and hung out with my family, and waited for her to call me, saying she got home ok. She called, but it was later than I expected. She then told me that the flight was 30 minutes late leaving, and she was in the airport most of the time. That must have been what I felt was wrong as I was leaving. So, from now on, I'm going with my instinct when it comes to her. God, I am so falling for her....I can feel it so much now. I need to be careful tho....take this one day at a time, that's what I keep telling myself. I have felt so much with her, I don't want to take any chances....I really think I could make her happy, and I think I could be happy with her....I can see myself with her....I really really can...I just hope she can see herself with me....
~Sehnsucht