Oct 01, 2008 21:32
happy? sad? depressed? extatic?
emotions.. dumb
no more therapist...(smith or the other)
no more talking in dutton's class
no more good grades.. due to crazy red head (not my mom.. but shes pretty crazy as well)
back to faking my happy face.. it seems to make more peple like me.
before i "change back" into my "normal" self im going down to guidance to complain about dutton and how everyone dislikes what she is doing and how she is treating her students. if they dont believe me they can call down anyone from any of her 3 classes.. im not the only one who thinks shes a crazy bitch (as a teacher). She is great, plesant, even funny at times out of class....
i've been gettings C's on all my papers.. the ones i try on and the ones i dont.. i'd rather not try and earn c's then work my ass off and obtain c's just bc she hates me as a person..
the other day i contemplated running away, packed some stuff up in the car and left.. i'd been driving for an hour when i decided to come back...i had to work.. and i didnt want to be a total dissapointment to my boss as well as my family.
my head is on the verge of exploding everyday. i get migranes constantly.. but there is nothing i can do... i;ve also been having horrible chest pains.. my back has been hurting constanly aswell... oh life.. what a wonder... NAHHHT
i need a vacation.. a get-away.. a road trip.. a.... well... a something