well, my day has quickly turned..
into something SOMEWHAT productive and enjoyable. i was so fed up with the nothingness that my life has been filled with like some sort of vaccum and that i was filled with such energy this morning! it was quite nice, actually, and strange and the exact same time because it had come out of no where like the breath of some angry god being blown through my soul.
oh i love when i read and you can just tell.. it fills me with inspiration. i loathe the tv for distracting me at times, dumbing me down, i must resist such a thing.
anyways.. i woke up today bright and early as you all know if you read my earlier posts... i know everyone loves to stay up to date on my life.
heh.
anyways... i woke up and made me and my brother eggs and bacon and stuff... then i went outside, smoked some ciggs and drew a picture thats kind of psychadelic looking and says "live free"... i want a tattoo that says that like on my lower stomach.. my waist. i just feel that statement is simple and honest.. kind of what i try to do for the most part.. and really is what normally occurs naturally lately. anyways.. after i did that i washed the dishes and read orpheus emerged by jack kerouac... its been awhile since ive read it and i was craving a different type of novel than what i would usually prefer. anyways... so i read that and i put some of the words i liked from it on a beautiful picture that, i believe... is of iceland. see-
sometimes i just get so tied up in what other people expect of me when, really, i shouldnt worry about that at all. its my life and any obedience that is expected of me is simply just me conforming to another way... a different type of life. and i DONT need to do that. sometimes i think i do and i feel bad for living how i want because other people tell me im a bad person but then i relieze that im just looking at things from a different view than them.. and perceiving things differently. no one seems to see that. everyone is free to think how they like and go about as they please.. with some morals of course. anyways, im done with this for now.
the computer also takes up far too much of my time.
oh i love when i read and you can just tell.. it fills me with inspiration. i loathe the tv for distracting me at times, dumbing me down, i must resist such a thing.
anyways.. i woke up today bright and early as you all know if you read my earlier posts... i know everyone loves to stay up to date on my life.
heh.
anyways... i woke up and made me and my brother eggs and bacon and stuff... then i went outside, smoked some ciggs and drew a picture thats kind of psychadelic looking and says "live free"... i want a tattoo that says that like on my lower stomach.. my waist. i just feel that statement is simple and honest.. kind of what i try to do for the most part.. and really is what normally occurs naturally lately. anyways.. after i did that i washed the dishes and read orpheus emerged by jack kerouac... its been awhile since ive read it and i was craving a different type of novel than what i would usually prefer. anyways... so i read that and i put some of the words i liked from it on a beautiful picture that, i believe... is of iceland. see-
sometimes i just get so tied up in what other people expect of me when, really, i shouldnt worry about that at all. its my life and any obedience that is expected of me is simply just me conforming to another way... a different type of life. and i DONT need to do that. sometimes i think i do and i feel bad for living how i want because other people tell me im a bad person but then i relieze that im just looking at things from a different view than them.. and perceiving things differently. no one seems to see that. everyone is free to think how they like and go about as they please.. with some morals of course. anyways, im done with this for now.
the computer also takes up far too much of my time.