Ah, the memories...
*sniff* *sniff* *pout*
I was watching ESPN tonight and they were airing the high school and college cheerleading competition in Orlando. It made me sad that cheering isn't a part of my life anymore. I miss learning routines, performing, competing, trying new stunts, tumbling.
Watching the squads finish their routine and celebrate back stage made me nostalgic. Very few memories compete with the natural high and sense of accomplishment I got doing a great job with my team. Overcoming team obstacles and bonding and improving.
Seriously, cheerleading MADE my high school experience. I don't know what I would have done with out it. I feel like I'm going to turn into an "Al Bundy" and constantly relive my glory days of high school cheerleading.
And I just feel like I'm not learning anything anymore. Like I'm wasting away. Granted, for the first time in my whole life I feel content with my appearance, but I can feel my body rotting. I look fine on the outside, but I can feel my age...my knees get stiff if I sit with them bent too long, i can't put pressure on my hips sometimes, my lower back is constantly aching, I've lost all my flexability, my muscle mass is gone.
And I'm only 23!!! I seriously got FREAKED OUT the other day imagining my body's condition when I'm 60 or 70 if I'm already like this!!! YIKES!!! And not to mention the drugs I've done and the toll they might be/are taking on my brain...
It's like the mentality of driving the shit out of a brand new car thinking, it's new, it can handle it...but all that wear and tear catches up with the car at some point. And that's what I'm scared of...my younger years catching up with me...
I think I need to do arobics or something just to get my heart rate up and exercise. I can't think of the last time I had a good work out, where I actually sweat and had to catch my breath. (scarry) To think we don't even really USE our bodies on a day to day basis...that we have to SCHEDULE time to USE our bodies...That is insane!!!
You know what they say, If you don't use it, you lose it...and I think I'm losing it...
Anyone else as scared as me??
XOXO
I was watching ESPN tonight and they were airing the high school and college cheerleading competition in Orlando. It made me sad that cheering isn't a part of my life anymore. I miss learning routines, performing, competing, trying new stunts, tumbling.
Watching the squads finish their routine and celebrate back stage made me nostalgic. Very few memories compete with the natural high and sense of accomplishment I got doing a great job with my team. Overcoming team obstacles and bonding and improving.
Seriously, cheerleading MADE my high school experience. I don't know what I would have done with out it. I feel like I'm going to turn into an "Al Bundy" and constantly relive my glory days of high school cheerleading.
And I just feel like I'm not learning anything anymore. Like I'm wasting away. Granted, for the first time in my whole life I feel content with my appearance, but I can feel my body rotting. I look fine on the outside, but I can feel my age...my knees get stiff if I sit with them bent too long, i can't put pressure on my hips sometimes, my lower back is constantly aching, I've lost all my flexability, my muscle mass is gone.
And I'm only 23!!! I seriously got FREAKED OUT the other day imagining my body's condition when I'm 60 or 70 if I'm already like this!!! YIKES!!! And not to mention the drugs I've done and the toll they might be/are taking on my brain...
It's like the mentality of driving the shit out of a brand new car thinking, it's new, it can handle it...but all that wear and tear catches up with the car at some point. And that's what I'm scared of...my younger years catching up with me...
I think I need to do arobics or something just to get my heart rate up and exercise. I can't think of the last time I had a good work out, where I actually sweat and had to catch my breath. (scarry) To think we don't even really USE our bodies on a day to day basis...that we have to SCHEDULE time to USE our bodies...That is insane!!!
You know what they say, If you don't use it, you lose it...and I think I'm losing it...
Anyone else as scared as me??
XOXO