stab me in the eye
how are you supposed to explain to your mother you only see once every 3 to 5 months that you need space? she calls EVERYDAY(atleast once, often atleast twice, sometimes even 4-5 times) and i dont even like talking on the phone and to top it off im fucking depressed because im jobless and im probably going to remain jobless because for some fucking reason im not good enough for anything or anyone. and having her call everyday just makes me feel worse about it all and that i have nothing new to talk to her about and that im quickly headed down the same life path as her except im trying. "well youre all i have I dont have any friends." like thats my fucking fault. maybe if she hadnt ailienated everyone shes ever met... i know its not really her fault but its def not my fault. its bad enough i clearly cant take care of myself but ive also been taking care of her my entire life and sometimes its just too much.