awakening
So, lemme get straight to it. Last night at work, I was fighting off one of my attacks all night. Once I got home, I experienced 3 throughout the course of the night. Not all at one time, but still rather painful & exhausting. Vincent was at work & didn't understand what was going on. He thought I was just being weird. Easy mistake. lol. Anyways, upon conversation this morning, I admitted to him that I was fighting off this attack & how things went down once I got home. He wanted me to explain all my symptoms to him. So I did & he was looking online to see if he could find anything out for me. He found the St. Vincent's Hospital website. They had an article posted about the signs of a heart attack & how they differ in men versus women. Upon reading said article, I realize that I have ALL these symptoms when I'm having an attack. Scared me shitless. Could this be for real? I mean, am I really having heart attacks? I freaked out. All this time no one has taken me seriously, not even my family. Mom & Dad pretty much made it clear that they think I'm making them up as an excuse to not get my license. Well, screw them. And screw anybody who thinks I make these things up. Talk to the people who have seen me have one. Talk to the boyfriends who have been brought to their knees in tears because they didn't know what was happening to me; the friends who have walked into my house to find me face-down on the floor & unconscious; my ex-fiancee' who thought I was dying in his arms. This is a serious problem. And now I find out they could be heart attacks?!?!?!?! I'm still laying in bed, scared shitless, because I don't know what causes them. I don't know what will happen to me. Vincent's making me go to the doctor's this week or he said he'd tell everybody. Not that this post is gunna help. *hangs head* I emailed the hospital & explained the situation to them & am hoping to receive a prompt reply. Here's hoping I don't die.