my six hundred pound life

[seeking_joely]

i've mentioned plenty of times in the past that i don't see myself as *one of those people you see on a TLC show*.  however, i am.  in fact i'm pretty sure they had a show with the same title as my blog post.  yep.  just checked my dvr and there it is.  for some reason i can't bring myself to watch these episodes, even though they have been on

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[danaewinters]

I know the feeling. I was just barely starting to feel the physical effects of my weight after passing 300 lbs, other than that just generalized "not fitting" feeling that seemed to happen everywhere I went. Ankles were just starting to swell - I was getting out of breath trying to stand up and sing for 3 hour shows - that kind of thing. When I got up to my highest of 357, I think I'd been in denial of the fact that I'd just kind of given up on the idea of doing it on my own, of getting to a healthy weight. But watching how my weight affected my parenting, and the habits my kids were picking up - well, that really did it. Now I'm about to get under the 300-mark, for the first time in over a decade, and it's both exciting and a little scary. Will I be happier because I won't have that nagging feeling of people judging me by my size, or will I be less happy because to the ones that knew me at 357, I'll just be "that girl who used to be fat", no matter how thin I get? I'm trying to get to a mindset where their judgement of me (or perceived judgement) just doesn't matter anymore. What matters is my life, my kids, and getting myself to a point where I'm no longer physically limited by my weight. I want to fit in roller coasters, chairs, normal clothes, smaller entrances, and never have to opt out of doing anything with my family because I don't "fit" or can't handle the physical strain of other moms. Anyhow, good luck on your journey - it is possible, and I hope that when you do get to that point that it feels like exactly what I'm hoping for too - liberation.