You are not a failure or a fraud. You have worked hard and become a much different person now than when you began this journey. I know how much you want to be able to get the weight off and keep it off so you can feel "normal." Now that your true friends love you for who you are not what you look like or what the numbers on any of the damn scales tell you.
Get checked for the apea. If you do have it, it can also be a cause of weight gain. Getting the proper treatment (i.e the Darth Vader Mask) can help with the weight loss. I had to get one prior to my surgery and now I don't have to use it at all. My sister uses it as her portable one when she visits friends.
Have you thought about the lap band? With your medical background, and the charted progress you have on your weight over time it seems like you would make a good candidate for the surgery. It won't solve the emotional/mental issues around the binging and overeating, but it would probably help in sustaining your weight so you can get it to a level where you can work on it.
I'm not a skinny minnie and my scale bounces between 250 and 270. My ultimate goal is to get to and maintain 200 pounds so I can think about reconstructive surgery...Because you don't lose over half your body weight and not have loose skin. I was jogging yesterday and to feel the loose skin on my belly jiggle my legs and such as I was running in front of the wii fit was icky, but at the same time a good reminder of how far I've come.
I have faith in you, girly. It's ok to hit a road block and make mistakes. You're learning from them though. *Hugs*
thank you for all your kind words, they really do mean a lot to me. i know i haven't been around much, but i've tried to keep tabs on all my favorites here. :)
i just filled out the forms for them to determine if they want me to get tested for the sleep apnea (pretty sure they will, since i wasn't aware of how bad my snoring/stopping breathing actually was until i was informed by the boy...yikes, hahaha).
my doctor really wants me to have surgery (funny how i don't hate this doctor for telling me that like the other one) and since my insurance pays for it 100% she thinks it's best i look into it. i have mixed feelings on it (that i will share in a post coming soon), but at the same time...if it's 100% covered and i've been fighting this battle for so long, maybe it's the right thing to do?
i'm so proud of you and how far you've come, i really hope you know that!!!
Get checked for the apea. If you do have it, it can also be a cause of weight gain. Getting the proper treatment (i.e the Darth Vader Mask) can help with the weight loss. I had to get one prior to my surgery and now I don't have to use it at all. My sister uses it as her portable one when she visits friends.
Have you thought about the lap band? With your medical background, and the charted progress you have on your weight over time it seems like you would make a good candidate for the surgery. It won't solve the emotional/mental issues around the binging and overeating, but it would probably help in sustaining your weight so you can get it to a level where you can work on it.
I'm not a skinny minnie and my scale bounces between 250 and 270. My ultimate goal is to get to and maintain 200 pounds so I can think about reconstructive surgery...Because you don't lose over half your body weight and not have loose skin. I was jogging yesterday and to feel the loose skin on my belly jiggle my legs and such as I was running in front of the wii fit was icky, but at the same time a good reminder of how far I've come.
I have faith in you, girly. It's ok to hit a road block and make mistakes. You're learning from them though. *Hugs*
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i just filled out the forms for them to determine if they want me to get tested for the sleep apnea (pretty sure they will, since i wasn't aware of how bad my snoring/stopping breathing actually was until i was informed by the boy...yikes, hahaha).
my doctor really wants me to have surgery (funny how i don't hate this doctor for telling me that like the other one) and since my insurance pays for it 100% she thinks it's best i look into it. i have mixed feelings on it (that i will share in a post coming soon), but at the same time...if it's 100% covered and i've been fighting this battle for so long, maybe it's the right thing to do?
i'm so proud of you and how far you've come, i really hope you know that!!!
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