Playing solitaire
I'd like to be able to inspire passion in people but that hasn't worked very well for me lately.
I had lunch with one of those particular people nine days ago. I sent him an email the next day. Three days later, I got a one line response saying he didn't have time to respond but eventually he will.
I ran into another one of those particular people online today. I basically told him that I wanted him to beat me and fuck me. He said he might consider it if he's not too busy and then he logged off.
I just had coffee with another one of those particular people, well Diet Coke - I don't do coffee, but we did the whole hanging out at a coffee house talking and reading thing. I talked about my feelings. I inspired him to think about how useful therapy was for him and to recommend it for me.
I was just chatting with another one of those people. He says he wants to tie me down and fuck me with all the bravado that an online conversation can inspire. So I say, sure, I'll travel to you, let's get it on - how about October 22, 23, or 24? Nope, he's too busy.
I'd like to inspire people to seek me out as a friend but that hasn't worked very well for me lately.
I went up to one of those particular people Friday night at my leatherboys club's bar event. He gave me one of those fake hugs with one arm and then walked away. Actually that happened with several of those particular people.
I sent one of those particular people an IM. He didn't reply.
I'm playing Solitaire on my computer right now.