kick in the teeth
Things...
-My head hurts
-I don't sleep anymore. Ever. It used to be just not at night...now it's never. It's fucked up. but those rare moments i do are filled with these dreams that stay with me all day.
-My brother is having another kid. That makes me happy.
-Sometimes when i call my mom Addison answers the phone. It's the most amazing thing on earth. Just to hear this tiny voice say "HI JANE". My mom leaves voicemails on my phone with addison saying hi over and over. happiness
-I'm going to florida over spring break. Visiting my cousin. I'm going to hang out a lot by myself. Go to the beach. maybe find a dolphin. Take some photos. Be warm.
-Watched a cool movie tonight. the soundtrack is great. movies make me happy. i watched this russian film called the return few weeks ago...beautiful.
-I've been drinking a lot lately and liking it. that's different.
-sometimes i zone out for hours and it feels like i'm not anywhere. or maybe like i'm in movie and narrating in my head. My movie would have narration. and good music. and sleepless nights.
-My head hurts
-I don't sleep anymore. Ever. It used to be just not at night...now it's never. It's fucked up. but those rare moments i do are filled with these dreams that stay with me all day.
-My brother is having another kid. That makes me happy.
-Sometimes when i call my mom Addison answers the phone. It's the most amazing thing on earth. Just to hear this tiny voice say "HI JANE". My mom leaves voicemails on my phone with addison saying hi over and over. happiness
-I'm going to florida over spring break. Visiting my cousin. I'm going to hang out a lot by myself. Go to the beach. maybe find a dolphin. Take some photos. Be warm.
-Watched a cool movie tonight. the soundtrack is great. movies make me happy. i watched this russian film called the return few weeks ago...beautiful.
-I've been drinking a lot lately and liking it. that's different.
-sometimes i zone out for hours and it feels like i'm not anywhere. or maybe like i'm in movie and narrating in my head. My movie would have narration. and good music. and sleepless nights.