First comes love, then comes...baby?
Last night, my best friend of 9 years told me he'd have a child with me. No one has ever offered to do anything so touching, so heartwarming, so selfless, so beautiful. I'm going to graduate college, and if I can wait another year without having a hysterectomy, I can think of nothing I want more. This may be my only chance to have a baby, and he and I would be giving up so much. We'd be sacrificing unthinkable things. But to me, it beats not being able to live now. I go through periods of time where I can function, but for the most part, my quality of life at the moment is about a 2 or 3 from 1 to 10. We don't have all the details planned out. He just brought it up last night. But we have some smart ideas about how this all could work. There's not much I wouldn't do to make this a possibility.
I am truly, unconditionally loved. The person I broke up with last year, who promised me the world, bailed when it came down to having a child(ren) sooner rather than later. That proved he was not the one for me. I would do absolutely anything for the man I loved, and I would expect the same in return. So instead of having do endure even more disappointment and heartache, my friend is willing to give me the world.
We'll see what happens. But to know that I could be a mother in the next two or so years breathes life back into me. My heart feels like it's on the mend. I love him, and there is nothing more that someone could do for me to prove that he loves me too.
I am truly, unconditionally loved. The person I broke up with last year, who promised me the world, bailed when it came down to having a child(ren) sooner rather than later. That proved he was not the one for me. I would do absolutely anything for the man I loved, and I would expect the same in return. So instead of having do endure even more disappointment and heartache, my friend is willing to give me the world.
We'll see what happens. But to know that I could be a mother in the next two or so years breathes life back into me. My heart feels like it's on the mend. I love him, and there is nothing more that someone could do for me to prove that he loves me too.