Private to Akiraura_no_uraJuly 8 2009, 09:34:05 UTC
[ Red. Kakashi sees red. And he's clutching the Hitomi so hard, it's amazing it hasn't cracked. It's taking all of his control to keep his breathing steady -- so angry, furious.
Akira's never seen him like this before.
It's about as close to being unguarded as Kakashi can get.
(He's really not in control.) ]
I wonder how you would've felt if anyone made inconsiderate jokes about your father to you when you had that dream.
[ His voice, it's not his usual deadpanned indifference. There's fire and lightning and ice. ]
That is not the kind of thing you say to someone after something like this.
[ A pause ]
This man -- he was my teammate. And his brother is my student.
private to Kakashi;ninjasecretsJuly 8 2009, 09:45:08 UTC
[ Akira goes a bit pale, and he's quiet a moment, gritting his teeth. It takes a concentrated effort to unclench his jaw enough to speak. ]
I felt it. Anyway, this guy's always trying to tell me the world is a terrible place, I'm sure he can handle it.
[ The truth was, he just blurted something out because if he didn't do something he probably would've just... puked. ]
Anyway... that dream wasn't the truth. So I wouldn't care.
[ he looks away, quiet for a moment ]
You forget, I'm not part of this little social club you guys have going. All I know is I felt something really, really screwed up and it pissed me off, okay?! I don't know any of these people. I thought this guy was an enemy.
Private to Akiraura_no_uraJuly 8 2009, 10:06:48 UTC
[ Itachi is technically still the enemy, and Kakashi can't deny that. Wishes he can, but there's too much to protect again and he knows he can't blow that cover. So he grits his teeth. Swallows down what he wants to say. Lets out a slow, slow breath. ]
Oh, and it really is such a great idea to try and piss off the enemy, huh? Are you trying to get yourself killed? Or get us attacked? If you don't know any of these people, being cautious is even more important!
[The Hitomi is looking up at Kisame from an awkward angle, as it seems to have been dropped entirely. He looks, to pardon the expression, a little green around the gills--he's lucky he isn't just getting violently ill all over his Hitomi then and there. The pain, the arousal, what was happening, who was doing it, who it was being done to....]
[This was definitely not what he was expecting; Kisame isn't entirely sure he can handle this with any sort of composure, even knowing it's made up of completely whole cloth. If Sasuke is here, he's going to murder that little bastard slowly and painfully.... Where the hell did Itachi go, anyway?]
[Hearing Kisame's voice over the Hitomi makes Itachi want to move even faster, but he won't run. He refuses to look like he is fleeing from a dream. Something intangible, fake, and purely made up by his subconscious.
this is after she bitched at paincrazysnakeladyJuly 9 2009, 03:54:01 UTC
[ Anko had missed this; in the confusion of the disaster over Pain's and Deidara's dreams, she had neglected to check for others for a while. When she touched the icon, she had meant to put the Hitomi down, to watch only.
She was never able to unclench her hand long enough to put it down.
When it was over, she gasped suddenly as if emerging from a raging river. As if she had been drowning.
Anko loves Konoha. Would die for it. Konoha gave her a reason to live. To laugh again. To want to do something good.
But--
Pain's words over Hitomi echo in her mind--
on orders from Konoha
--and Anko is lost again.
In the aftermath of this nightmare, she can almost feel Orochimaru's hands on her arms, and she shudders uncontrollably.
She does not reply. But she does sit and wonder, for a long time, about Itachi.
In a way, she realizes she might almost have known. ]
[ There are chains here heavier than any Kakashi's ever felt before, snaking and tightening and choking around him in a crush that has the Hitomi shaking in his hand. This is--
(The pain and pleasure and need and grief is too much, too much, colliding within him, too much, and Kakashi thinks he's going to go crazy if he keeps feeling this.)
This is not what he expected, though he's not sure if he expected anything to begin with, and Sasuke's voice is still whispering in his (his) ear filled with so much hatred and anger and spite and everything that isn't Sasuke because Sasuke would never, could never do something like this, be this cruel, do this (even if Itachi wants him to, thinks he should, wishes he would) to his brother (he wanted to kill him for so many years, but death is kinder than this, death is kinder than this) and Kakashi suddenly feels like he can't breathe, even with all the short, shaky breaths that he's taking
( ... )
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Y-y'know...
A brother-complex joke would be just too easy right about now. ;;
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Akira's never seen him like this before.
It's about as close to being unguarded as Kakashi can get.
(He's really not in control.) ]
I wonder how you would've felt if anyone made inconsiderate jokes about your father to you when you had that dream.
[ His voice, it's not his usual deadpanned indifference. There's fire and lightning and ice. ]
That is not the kind of thing you say to someone after something like this.
[ A pause ]
This man -- he was my teammate. And his brother is my student.
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I felt it. Anyway, this guy's always trying to tell me the world is a terrible place, I'm sure he can handle it.
[ The truth was, he just blurted something out because if he didn't do something he probably would've just... puked. ]
Anyway... that dream wasn't the truth. So I wouldn't care.
[ he looks away, quiet for a moment ]
You forget, I'm not part of this little social club you guys have going. All I know is I felt something really, really screwed up and it pissed me off, okay?! I don't know any of these people. I thought this guy was an enemy.
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Oh, and it really is such a great idea to try and piss off the enemy, huh? Are you trying to get yourself killed? Or get us attacked? If you don't know any of these people, being cautious is even more important!
[ His tone is harsh. ]
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[The Hitomi is looking up at Kisame from an awkward angle, as it seems to have been dropped entirely. He looks, to pardon the expression, a little green around the gills--he's lucky he isn't just getting violently ill all over his Hitomi then and there. The pain, the arousal, what was happening, who was doing it, who it was being done to....]
[This was definitely not what he was expecting; Kisame isn't entirely sure he can handle this with any sort of composure, even knowing it's made up of completely whole cloth. If Sasuke is here, he's going to murder that little bastard slowly and painfully.... Where the hell did Itachi go, anyway?]
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But he won't respond. He can't.
...not right now--and probably never.]
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[ Two hours from now, Anko will realize she meant to make it private, and didn't. She'll swear loudly. ]
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Not for you, either, un.
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She was never able to unclench her hand long enough to put it down.
When it was over, she gasped suddenly as if emerging from a raging river. As if she had been drowning.
Anko loves Konoha. Would die for it. Konoha gave her a reason to live. To laugh again. To want to do something good.
But--
Pain's words over Hitomi echo in her mind--
on orders from Konoha
--and Anko is lost again.
In the aftermath of this nightmare, she can almost feel Orochimaru's hands on her arms, and she shudders uncontrollably.
She does not reply. But she does sit and wonder, for a long time, about Itachi.
In a way, she realizes she might almost have known. ]
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(The pain and pleasure and need and grief is too much, too much, colliding within him, too much, and Kakashi thinks he's going to go crazy if he keeps feeling this.)
This is not what he expected, though he's not sure if he expected anything to begin with, and Sasuke's voice is still whispering in his (his) ear filled with so much hatred and anger and spite and everything that isn't Sasuke because Sasuke would never, could never do something like this, be this cruel, do this (even if Itachi wants him to, thinks he should, wishes he would) to his brother (he wanted to kill him for so many years, but death is kinder than this, death is kinder than this) and Kakashi suddenly feels like he can't breathe, even with all the short, shaky breaths that he's taking ( ... )
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