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you know how people say that you can never go back to the way life was in the past.
because typically its memorable and good. and way better then the present.
i cant even single out a place in the past id want to go even if i could.

i wish i could erase somethings and let go of others.
but they are who i am now. so that is impossible.
but they are making me a mess now.

i dont know how ill ever be happy.
or how to even go about trying.